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Can You Really Change The Path Your Life Will take?

Can You Really Change The Path Your Life will take or is it all preordained? Its something I have been thinking about a lot latterly. It often feels to me that many outcomes are a little to predictable at times as if one had a form clavoyance. Sometimes I don’t always seem to be able to keep a rational measured view on things. At times I have felt as there some strange force guiding me but also shutting certain doors and opening others. perhaps really it is just my subconscious, but it can feel like an external force almost. At my lowest ebb I have felt there is some malign force trying to knock me back when I get too cocky. Perhaps we simply have a need to apportion blame to avoid taking responsibility for our own destiny or rather the outcome of our decisions’. I have run in to an odd problem with a project that may well be simply due to me making a couple of mistakes due to a lack of concentration which hopefully I may now have fixed and whilst I know logically it’s just a mistake again my mind wants to interpret it as some sort of malign elemental force standing between me and victory.
I suspect it’s not though. My body clock is out of kilter so sleep is not so good at present as I am dreaming a lot and waking up tired too.

Currently I am having a weird problem with a release through soundclouds distro system where it keeps telling me that the audio language is incorrect. I have checked everything about 4 times now. There was an error which I have corrected but it seems not to have made any difference. If they don’t sort it out soon I will have to use a different platform I think. It’s odd as I have never had problems with them before.

When I have a problem I tend to get stuck and totally obsessed with it, it s a real nuisance at times for me. I feel it stems from a lack of control in my earlier life as a child when I was bullied and there was also a lot of gaslighting. Eventually I ended up with a belief system that if something went wrong it was always due to malicious intent or somebody trying to stop me from doing something. Sometimes it may have been but as time went by then usually it was not. Unfortunately my subconscious has never quite recovered from those fixed ideations. So one little upset when I am feeling fragile sets me off again. The worst part is that I really struggle to shift the focus of my attentions elsewhere.

Bureaucracy and the filling of forms.

I am currently try to help my sister move nearer to me. Its may have to be some form of social housing. So far the amount of form filling has been prodigious! I do wonder how anyone gets through this stuff to be honest. One form which is still not completed has taken 4 hours.
I cannot imagine how for example a homeless person with limited resources would be able to manage this.

Here is some music to fill in in forms by.

Time Running Out

Combatting hopelessness can be a challenging journey, but there are several strategies that may help. It’s important to note that everyone is different, so what works for one person may not work for another.

Remember that it’s okay to ask for help, and progress may be gradual. If you find that your feelings of hopelessness persist or worsen, seeking professional assistance is crucial.

It’s still January whichever way you look at it.

Captains Log Star Date Whatever

Speaking of news, it’s mostly tragic at the time of writing, the headlines reflect unsettling events and conflicts. Ukraine, Palestine, Israel and all the rest. The suffering endured by innocent people is deeply saddening, regardless of the terminology used to describe it. The gravity of the situation becomes even more apparent when we’re confronted with such realities through our screens.

Ideally I would like to go out and socialise say 3 or 4 times a week and the rest of the time with my recording and writing music, writing my blog and stuff. I don’t do too badly really. Some days are hard. Obviously if I had an extended family that would take up some time too, but I don’t. Pub friends are usually acquaintances really in most cases, unless your are in a real village in which case they might be proper mates as well. My friendships usually are formed from a mutual interest and some become more than that. All my women friends know enough about me to get me hung drawn and quartered

As you contemplate the idea of writing a piece of music, it’s only natural to feel overwhelmed by the enormity of the subject matter. How can words alone capture the complexity of the world’s sorrows, well of course its not words alone. Sometimes, music has a way of transcending the limitations of language, allowing melodies and rhythms to convey emotions that words alone cannot express. Perhaps, through music, you can find a way to lend a voice to the unspoken and offer solace to those who suffer. Of course you may just sound trite, maybe you offer solace only to yourself.

Engaging in music-related activities can be a great way to counterbalance the winter blues or simply express them, but it can’t eradicate them. Music has a unique ability to transport us to different emotional landscapes, offering solace and comfort during challenging times. It’s a way to connect with our emotions and find a release, especially when the world around us seems to be filled with distressing news.

I completely understand the struggle of navigating through the gloomy winter days and the impact it can have on our moods. It seems like a recurring theme for many of us as we transition from the vibrant outdoors to the confinement of our offices, just to find ourselves arriving and leaving in darkness. However, it’s uplifting to hear that you were able to soak in the crisp and clear autumnal sunshine during your morning outing.

In the comfort of your surroundings, you have the opportunity to explore the intangible connections between your emotions and the melodies that dance through your mind. Your creativity has the potential to touch hearts and serve as a reminder that even in the face of turmoil, there is still beauty to be found.

So, as you sit there, gazing at your screen, know that your desire to express, create, and uplift through music is a remarkable endeavour. Keep embracing the sunlight, both literal and metaphorical, and let it inspire the notes that flow from your soul.

Diana Stone and Vicky Martin.
January 2019

Diana Stone and Vicky Martin. January 2019