Its been a bit of a strain keeping spirits up at present. My father in law has recently had a very severe stroke, having been until very recently an active 92 year old doing his own garden and mostly looking after himself. He is semi-conscious and on his way out and expected to last a few days at most. This has hit my partner very hard as i think she expected him to go on for ever. He decided to stop taking his meds about a month before this happened and said he was fed up. His wife died 3 years back and they were a very close couple, and he was active but a rather insular sort of person in many ways. He was also like many older people fairly far to the right, so when I would go and visit I would try and keep the conversation as far away as possible from anything remotely contentious. Since my Mrs retired she had gone and visited on a fairly regular basis as had her other 2 sisters who lived fairly close by, so he has has seen a lot of his family and extended family in recent years.
I will not be waiting at the bedside though having watched both my parents die in hospital (My father died when I was 27) and in one of those strange circumstances my Grandfather who died when I was talking to him when I was about 7 years old. Also my older sister who passed a couple of years back. It makes you feel a bit like the Angel of death as you visit and the next thing you know people are dead. Often its the case that you wait at the bedside and the moment that you leave they pass. Apparently he reasonably comfortable at present…..
Last night the news about the attack in Nice came through just as I was about to go to sleep and that was a real shock particularly due to the nature of it. How one can ever.protect against such events is very difficult to comprehend.
The world has so much conflict and pain in it day to day and so much is virtually unreported.
This weekend we are only playing one gig at the Ealing Blues Festival and at present my heart is really not in it. A close friend is also having family problems which I won’t mention here too.
Must be time for a cup of tea.
It’s a bit of a low key day, after a weekend of gigs. My mood is a bit low today and I can’t get going, though i have been doing a few mundane tasks and the day has passed quite quickly. This miserable summer is really not helping and I do wonder if we will see any real sunshine for the remainder of the season. I am really not too hopeful to be honest. There seems to be a strange mood in the land too. Almost like discovering that from now on it will always be a wet Sunday afternoon for all eternity. I am not sure why I feel like this, as the good things in my life are still good and compared to a lot of people I am fairly secure.
Mental health is a weird thing though isn’t it?
I Played at the Fling festival in Chelmsford the other day, it was fun and the sun came out too. I do wish it would warm up a bit though. Got a really nice vegan curry too. Also saw a very good act called “Band of Fools”. Lovely stuff.
While we were sorting our gear out a tree patted me on the back of the head, very gently. Quite a strange sensation, as I didn’t know they had Ents in Chelmsford?
Photo by Nick Garner
Last week we did this and the sun shone there too.
— Slate Islands (@SlateIslands) June 27, 2016