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So Hot My Brain is Fried

Too hot to do anything and to hot to think as well. Hopefully the weather is supposed to break on Monday, but its really hard going as there is no way to keep the flats internal temp below 30C. We just can’t lower it whatever we do.    We have tried every trick in the book pretty much. Hi ho alas and also lack a day. 
Just stringing a few words together seems a herculean effort at present. I have resorted to keeping a small spray bottle in the fridge and misting myself with it to keep cool. It is actually remarkably effective in the short term. I did look into various cooling devices but they are not that practical due to the design of the apartment.
So the day to day is difficult right now. 

Here is a new song. It’s just Piano and Vocal on this one for a change, keeping it simple.

Let’s get back to proper English summers where you went on holiday in a caravan in Bognor Regis and the rain p***** down all night and it was so loud you couldn’t sleep. Or I could just move to Wales I suppose. In winter when it snowed just after we moved here in 2018  we had to have the heating off as there was a leak, it was 19C. Each year in winter we seem to need much less heating. But how the hell you cool it I don’t know. Not that I am obsessed you know, but please make it stop.

The war in Ukraine is rumbling on and it’s scary.  Really scary. I do wonder if I might not live to to draw my pension next year. Are we that close to a 3rd world war?
It feels like we might be. All of the certainties we had seem to be blowing away in the wind. So we wait and we worry.  Does Putin want to fulfil the words of the book?

“When the Lamb broke the fourth seal, I heard the voice of the fourth living creature saying, “Come.” I looked, and behold, a pale horse; and he who sat on it had the name Death; and Hades was following with him. Authority was given to them over a fourth of the earth, to kill with sword and with famine and with pestilence and by the wild beasts of the earth.”

Makes you wonder what a person of  faith feels at a time like this? 

I think I need a drink, laters people and try and do no harm. 

Diana says you have to laugh

Still fighting with Covid.

Wow, I am still not really well after 3 weeks. I am getting better but its 2 steps forward and one step back at present. I have  been messaging  people to explain that I will be out of commission for another week or so, with hopefully a gradual return to my normal activities’. Its hard going though. I guess I am feeling my age now. It’s hot again too. Too hot for me in recovery to be honest. I am quite fatigued and it is  bit of a shock to be honest, my usual bounce back is not occuring in the same way.  Age I suppose. it’s very frustrating.  I feel much like I did during lock down again, but I still don’t feel well yet.  The good news is that at the time of writing finally after 3 weeks I have just tested negative. I was beginning to get a bit worried that I might be starting a long covid infection. I am working on getting my strength back a bit too. I know if I miss one day I will be tempted to miss another. Some days I get up in pain but the exercises take it away. So like music and practice and composing it is my daily routine. I am lazy so I have an almost military discipline about it. I note how much exercise  I do per day. That helps me keep motivation up. And pain killers are mostly useless for my pains so I have no choice. Each day I start with exercises and if I miss them I fit them In at a different time in the day pretty much. We are of a different character though. If i had a pottery kiln i would be a potter. I don’t really have any musical Instruments I dont play and so forth. The idea of buying  a guitar and hanging it on the wall although it might be a beautiful thing is alien to me. In part perhaps because I never had money so anything I got was a titanic struggle to get so everything gets used. 

Gosh I am so tired  though.

Never surrender, never give up.  

Here’s a tune for you all


So Who Are You Really?

So who are you really. That’s the question?  And its a very hard one to answer too.

So where to start, as perhaps who am I today and was that different to who I was yesterday. I think the answer is actually yes in this case.

Its OK you will be forgiven according to the new Testament, I expect they just pick out the bits they want. I used to find their very “white” leaflets the JW’s left  amusing. I think they may have lost the Nordic blonde Jesus by now. I swear if they turned up here I would answer the door scantily clad and say “hello boys do you want to party”.

You have to laugh. I have just had a FB friend request from someone that used to go to Transliving in Chelmsford 25 years ago. They sent me a message which says “Hope you are keeping well and still getting out and about” Difficult to avoid any reply sounding sarcastic “Not much, Played about 4000 gigs with my various bands” A bit of clue as there is a picture of me on stage at on my profile. An interesting week having spent time socialising on 4 consecutive day’s which has been pleasant. However today as a not “going out” day is welcome too. BTW the thought of my pension arriving in just over 6 months time as made for a slight outbreak of “Bollocks to it, who cares” in regard to a lot of things. 🙂 I seem to be having fun with music but the notion of “winning or loosing ” at it now seems quite irrelevant….

Slowly getting my sea legs back in terms of living a post lock down life. There is no doubt that aches and pains are a bit worse than they used to be but in part that may be due to getting used to a bit more activity. Blimey, 4 hours playing in the pub today on the fiddle. Quite good fun, but very tiring.
Here is a clip of Fisherman’s Blues, with me and a bunch who go by the name of the “Also Rans” at the “The White Horse.” In Bedford.


sneakily recorded a few bits to see what it sounded like. Not bad actually. I think my strategy may well pay off longer term in regards to recruiting musical co-conspirators.

Its all going quite mad at present the Prog band that I was asked if I might also work with by yet another bass player is also going to happen it seems ad he now has personnel. It will only be about 5 or 6 gigs a year if it does at most rehearsal will be done remotely, but the gigs will all be theatres/Festivals if it works. Also lots of improvised stuff Hopefully some stuff will stick out of all of this or perhaps I will end up like the real pros that I know that play with a different act every week and are in about 10 different bands. Funny old world.

Here’s a thought. As Putin’s supposedly religious perhaps an angel of the lord could nip round and give him the chance to stop all this silliness or else give him a jolly good smiting. He obviously does not care about wrecking the economy and that will happen, people are already cannibalising cars to keep them on the road. Planes can’t fly due to lack of replacement tyres which can only do a certain number of take offs and landings and so on… Bits to repair your washing machine and all sorts. Almost everything has imported electronics including much of the newer military hardware. So yes it will go on and turn in to a war of attrition.

I now have had the revelation that actually on the whole I like people rather more than I dislike them in general. Extraordinary. Wow, 28 years since my referral to Springfield’s mental hospital for anxiety, don’t time fly when you are having fun 😉 Just found some old letters.
Yesterday was 
A day when your body just says no but your brain just wants to say yes. Last week I had a much busier week than I have had since well before lockdown. Its been good to be doing stuff again. Unfortunately my musculoskeletal pains have kicked off big time. I may have over exerted myself a bit and I am suffering for it today.

Its always difficult to get the balance right between sufficient activity. Too little and its bad news too much and its bad news. You cant win at times and it gets a bit depressing. Usually days like this pass but it means you just can’t do what you planned which is very frustrating. Also it does mean on bad days you think maybe I should just give up. But for some strange reason you never do….

Romans 8:28

And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose.

“We know what we are, but know not what we may be.”  W.S