You Can’t Make People Like You

Musings

Seriously, the world doesn’t work like that. Even if you try paying them. So to with start here is a new song.

Dreaming I Was Reborn


I have temporarily taken car off the market to look at other ways to shift it. I think I was a bit too honest in my advert. I may even get it fixed 🙂 So onto plan B. I have a friend. No seriously I really do. Actually one. Not imaginary…
My main problem over the years has been this. Socialising outside my peer group was difficult as I was always doing something else. You get a dinner party invite, but you can’t go as you have a gig for example. Yes most people I know are artists/musicians to a degree of course. But also a few people I know actually pretty much straight hetero pensioners, but not ones that are massive football fans for example(though some are). To me acceptance is the same a tolerance. One can feel isolated of course.

I am trying to get things on an even keel again. My finances are screwed temporally though as ever. I have pumped out a lot of music (particularly over the last 3 years) and on some of it the mixes are not as good as they could be. Taking it a bit slower is maybe the answer to that but also getting some of the other distractions out of my head that are nagging me somewhat. My head’s still pretty much in turmoil right now. The Trump thing blows my mind though I expected it to happen it’s bizarre and verging on the surreal. Turkeys voting for christmas isn’t even the half of it.


We all need to make a living so what would you do? What is your line in the sand never to be crossed? When does harmless fun become toxic. We all sell something, serve someone and how much do we actually value ourselves?
So many questions and so few answers.
Time races by faster and faster. We try to get older and more disgraceful if we are spared. Well at least I do anyway.

Go on Then You Know You Want to…

Musings

Well I want to anyway and what’s the harm in it anyway I say. I often think I shouldn’t then possibly I absolutely couldn’t but then I end up doing it anyway 🙂 We all need a regular shot of endorphins and sometimes that’s hard to get when you are home alone and there is nobody to call on the phone. Here’s an old song in a new version.

Just Another Someone

And now back to the serious stuff. Trump gets inaugurated on Monday. I wonder what that will actually mean for the rest of the world? I guess we just sit back and enjoy the ride or not. It may well be that for the rest of the world not much actually changes after all. It is a strange business though in general. The way the US conducts itself is for for a simple soul like me impossible to fathom. The law seems meaningless when applied to anybody with sufficient wealth, but perhaps it is the same in the UK though we don’t see it so blatantly? Money seems to be able to buy most things short of immortality though who knows, even that may be something you can purchase in the future. I see money at work but its like reading a sci-fi novel as its a world so remote from me as to almost be impossible to conceive how it works. What seems incomprehensible is the way that those who do possess it behave and what they value.

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Many Trump supporters seem to come from quite marginalised groups, often low income much like the Brexit supporters in the UK. The notion of blaming and or othering people for all your woes seems to be #1 in most politicians play books now. As I write its the eve of my 68 birthday and I can honestly say in many respects I understand very little about human nature and society. Every day less and less in fact. I try to avoid directing hate at anyone but sometimes it’s hard work. As I write I am also listening to Purcell: Music for the funeral of Queen Mary.
Seems appropriate with my vibe at present. Looks as though the US TikTok ban is going ahead at the time of going to press.

Sargasso Stuck, Becalmed Already

Musings

Today was a wasted day when I made a fundamental mistake. Trying to fit in and be helpful. Spoiler, it didn’t work. I am getting on with music stuff again now. Annoyed about a wasted day when I could have been doing something useful. Especially after being too tired to do anything the day before. Triple Ho Ho Hum… Maybe tomorrow.

My brain is still a bit wintryfied at present though and I do feel I could just sleep and sleep. I feel as if I am missing something in general a little. Perhaps because so much of my daily existence is virtual through screens and so both real and yet also at one remove. Its weird to know as internet buddies people in the USA and Africa but also Leicester that one may never meet but they seem as familiar as siblings. Such a world was unimaginable when we were growing up. A long distance phone call was a special thing, not calling the US toll free. I know how it works to an extent but it still feels like Science Fiction to me. Like being able to know in some cases who listens to my music by their names and see a picture of them in Japan or Iran or Uzbekistan. No wonder it’s hard to keep a grip on reality.

One Step Forward

If there is a future I wish you well with it and that at least some of your hopes and dreams maybe fulfilled. Me, well today I do feel pretty old to be honest. Who knows where all that time went? It’s still winter outside. Those were the days.