Monthly Archives: December 2020

Some good news we hope for 2021

The Oxford vaccine has been approved.  So we are now hopefully at half way stage. Maybe we will be somewhere nearer to normality by mid summer then? I really do hope so particularly for those who are now in forced isolation that live alone and have been so in some cases for close to a year. There is a light at the end of the tunnel for those who have not had an enforced retirement from live music and will be able to return to live performances in every sort of environment though this looks as though it may still be many months off it seems. 

It will be a strange overture to the coming year though. For me the last year has been doubly rough having just started to adjust to the loss of one good friend and the changes that ensued from that I just recently lost another.  I played my last gig in february 2020  and its is very possible due to circumstances beyond my control that I may well not be able to continue with much more than occasional live performances in future. Covid restrictions have made it virtually impossible to recruit a new sidekick for live performance sadly. I have also had to consider the possibility that there will not be a suitable candidate so it may be that the last chapter for the Delta Ladies has now been written. 
What comes next is an open question.

On a personal level I have got pretty low now again and keeping my head above water has been difficult. That is possibly going to be a problem with regard to getting out and playing again as my confidence is now toast. I am also having a lot of trouble with my back and related joint problems. If I cannot get much in the way of improvement it will impact on my abilities.  It may be that which puts the brakes on for me in the end.  

I havent mentioned Brexit but there is nothing good in it anyway shape or form. It senses your fear like an errant dog with a nervous postman and just when you think it cant get any worse it draws back its mouth  and displays its teeth.  Or is that just Boris Johnson?

 

 

We are in the strange hinterland between Christmas and New year. Its a grey and very cold day. Nothings happening but the local flooding has drained away fortunately. 

This seems particularly apposite.

When we are born we cry that we are come / To this great stage of fools

— KING LEAR, ACT 4 SCENE 6, LINES 178-79; KING LEAR TO GLOUCESTER

Christmas 2020

Well so far its mostly shit really and likely to get worse I suspect. The perfect end to a bad year.  Or perhaps simply a slightly drawn out end of everything. It feels a bit that way now. I am making attempts to keep a vaguely buoyant image. Make no mistake though, the ship is taking on water as its holed  below the line and sinking fast.

Last week I attended a friends funeral and was relieved to have got through it with out cracking completely to be honest. Its was good to see friendly faces though, and not via a screen for a change. The circumstances were pretty weird though to say the least. The service was the best possible in  the situation though I think.

This week we have bad news from every quater pretty much including the possibility of food shortages. 

I have pretty much zero motivation to do anything now. I have been making a few small changes to the studio room and more tidying up to make it a bit easier to work in. I need more of  a distraction though as I am not really coping now.  I am getting fairly irritable  and anxious too now. I have no idea what to do about it.

At this point I would blithely post a link to a recent tune but not on this occasion.  

Diana Stones Glass Cage Press kit link and info

http://www.reverbnation.com/rpk/dianastone

December begins

What a year, it has been.  Were to start? I am quite daunted by the possible futures that may be coming my way. Everything is new, in this bave new world though and events have pushed me back to the back of the queue now.  Also my mentors and advisers have for various reasons moved on in every sense. I am thrown back on my own resources but that’s really not enough. I will give a hurrah for the first Covid-19 vaccine and the fact that this points at a way forward but its a long road home and much has been lost and will never be the same again. I thought I was set to embark on a different path but its turned out to be a minor divergence or perhaps a pleasant detour but once through the woods I have rejoined that old path again but my companions are no longer fellow travellers in my caravan. 

I am blinking in the light and wondering what comes next?  Also my mind has got to a very strange places and everything I once desired is changed and transformed. A new road calls and its not like the old one at all and trouble may well catch me out somewhere.


Just embracing new thoughts and trying to get comfortable with them is not so easy now.  I was never one for gurus but I think I need one now.  There’s a lot of confusion and possibly illusion too.  So basically help I need some navigational aid. A new roadmap to take me on the next leg of this journey  towards home.
Its a different world and a separate one from many now. Like viewing everything through a perspex safety screen or from a great distance with a sense of massive disconnection.  

So I am overthinking again. It must be time to get back to the music again now.
Do drop in and have a listen 

https://soundcloud.com/dianastone

 

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