Category Archives: Musings

Seems Like Summer

Musings

Blue sky’s , warm and a still day at the time of writing.  The mud pie builders are still digging in what will be the public open space which seems no nearer  to completion than it did 6 months ago. So the digging  dinosaurs move te piles of earth around again. at this rate maybe they will still be at it until 2022.  One pile of earth gets moved to another pile of earth in stately procession like some ancient ritual whos origins and meaning have been lost 100’s of years ago, but are still continued to appease the spirits of earth and air and ensure good harvest of identikit  new build homes perchance?

I  have just sent off a few tracks to compete for some radio airplay opportunities as I havent done so since  Christmas. Its an act of faith really, nothing ever seems to come of doing so but you feel you have to try.   

   

The Daily Grind

Diana Stones Songs, glass cage, music, Musings

Today everything is aching. So its not the best day so far. Its not gone that well for the guy delivering a digger on the building site opposite as he took a wall down with his trailer.  OK a  moments amusement was found watching the proceedings I admit.  Watching others work is part of my routine at present. The house building is finished and they are landscaping a public open space which will be the completion of the development here which we have watched over the 3 years we have been here. So I can say in truth I remember this when it was all fields 😉  
Though not particularly interesting ones. And I am so tired. Drained and unmotivated.  I had hoped to be recording today but the aches and pains seem to have knocked that for 6.  I might have a try in a little while  though if possible. Wish me luck.  I am trying hemp oil again,as it supposed to help with joint pains and anxiety. Quiet desperation or what. I guess this what aging is about.  The spirit is willing  but…

I have couple of project tracks I am supposed to be adding violin for people  and I had completely forgotten about them. Must try harder LOL.   Actually I did send something off today. Go me. To be fair only after being reminded. Whoops.  I am not sure how good it is but hey its a start.  I have added a new set of arm resistance exercises this week to my routine, ever hopeful that it may help with one or two problems, preferably without it making anything else worse.

The end of the world is always nigh I have found. Much introspection going on here about the balancing what  we do in life between short term and long term gains. I am somewhat mired in nostalgia and that is stopping me from getting on with things which should make my life better. I am recording a song and it sounds very 90’s. It may not do by the time its finished though of course. I am glad that I have some music theory and ability to read and write it as it makes it much easier to carry on with stuff. Especially when one gets demotivated its a useful scaffold to start building on, even if one had no ideas in ones head at all. It possible to just lay some foundations and then inspiration may well kick in out of the blue yonder.

So will UK Covid restrictions end on June 21?  I rather feel that they wont and we will not see any real change until early autumn and nothing like normal till spring 22. For me its not personally going to make much difference and I will just be ticking over.

I have signed up to join  zoom singerarounds with the local bedford folk club finally. If and when it opens its doors again that’s going to be useful as this is the one next door in Kempston just the other side of the trees I can see in the far distance from my studio room. 

Anyway surprise, surprise here is a new song.  Take it easy out there…

 

Lost the plot if there was one

Musings, other, whatever

I have lost the plot recently to some extent. The usual fight with depression and anxiety. I looked back to see what I was doing recording and writing wise last Autumn and Winter. It was quite a lot of material. Some times 8 tracks a month or more. An insane amount really. Now emotionally things have calmed down and I have stopped frantic though actually quite productive activity. So I need to take a few chances with regard to other people and influences, with other ideas. I need people to bounce ideas off. I think I could have handled the bereavements OK if we hadn’t suffered the covid lockdowns. That was the one step beyond I think. Previously when I have felt like this the routine obligations have kept me going but now there are none. Everything is on tap and if I were to order food to be delivered I would not have any reason to leave the premises. That might work for some folks. The paradox is I need to connect with people but I am rubbish at that sort of thing. I am having to try to improve those skills now of necessity as I always relied on have one or two friends that were a gateway to a social life. So a weird combination of events has lead me to this. I grant that it may be the case that its me and a million others in manys of course. 

So I know what’s up, but I can’t see how to fix it. I have found a few more useful strengthening exercises for my arms, which are weak due to my back problems. Just started them and they do hurt a bit but long term they should help get me back on track with a bit of luck..