Especially for winter. The Valentine’s day post. There are a lot of very lonely people about of a certain age it seems.
My muse is battered from overuse. I really need to creatively decompress a bit. I have been busy rehearsing new material for the 3 acts I play with and my brain is just a little fried. Ears get tired two and it’s not always possible to know what one is hearing. I haven’t run out of ideas by any means but I am getting a bit jaded and need a palette cleanser. Possibly a bit more outside influence to spice it up a little? Sometimes having total creative freedom can work against the process. The trouble is If I stop I feel I wont get started again. So I plough on perhaps slightly mechanistically.
I recorded this song at the time of writing.
DON’T NEED MY PERMISSION
Here be monsters, when I read the news. Its not getting any better. You can it seems die of innocence in many parts of the world. On my drive to rehearsals the signs of an early spring are popping up. Its also very warm again for this time of year. A sign that the world is changing perhaps? Tell me if you have heard this one before. My body complains as ever so no change there. I am finding it difficult to keep up the effort to exercise daily, but hopefully over all I am doing enough.
Currently I am working on a new solo piano tune running through various variations on a theme. I will let it ferment a while.
Talking of ferment. Mostly things are jogging along reasonably OK as in having fun with music and having a bit of regular social contact. Really I can’t complain on that score. What’s going on in the world upsets me greatly. Gaza obviously. Ukraine I saw on a BBC news report is having munitions shortages now which makes me think that Putin “winning” is now very lightly indeed. Even Labour winning a couple of by-elections relatively locally did not give me much chear, as IMO as I feel they one simply by not being as awful as the other lot.
And as I type this:
“Jailed Russian opposition politician Alexei Navalny dead, says prison service”
https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/live/world-68316979 Well no surprise there really. They got him in the end though they took their time about it..
I had a quick panic about possible unpaid bills and of course having checked I had indeed paid them on time. What triggered it was having more money than expected. Of course it’s now a year since having a reasonable stable income that is not dependent on music and performance.
My emotional brain has not caught up with my logical one yet it seems.
