I had a panic attack yesterday. I used to get them quite frequently a few years back. I still do get very anxious but this was totally out of the blue. Ho hum. As I write this I have just returned from a good rehearsal with Jon Bickley and the Invisible Folk Club band over in Chesham. I am not such a big fan of the M1 though. But on a day like today I can tolerate it. I think I am getting a spot of hayfever/pollen bother.
Here is a song from last year that was quite popular , its called “Yes, but so where is it” Who knows what it’s about.
Well to be honest that’s clickbait really as there is usually something in the works at any time though I am trying to get a little more mainstream again with this latest effort. Its nearly there, but I do need to not over spice it, which is easily done I find. So I am pausing for a moment as it may be complete I feel? We shall see. I await the arranging muse. To leave it or not to leave it…Where tis nobler not put loads of unnecessary overdubs’ but by abating make it wholesome again. Ey, there’s the rub. I shall go and review it now. And I decided to leave it as it was. Its a song I may well revisit and revise in future I think . So here it is below. A first draft if you will.
As I write this it’s been a day of rain whilst I do studio things. I feel a little cabin fever coming on to be honest after a week of doing stuff mostly on my own. Ho Hum. But there are daffodils blooming at least.
Some days you feel like a fraud. Well I do. Yes indeed. What’s to be done about it? I have got a little lazy recently, not learning things properly. It’s a mindset that is easy to get into. I was very anxious when I arrived at the gig yesterday. Much more than the last time I played there. I did relax as it progressed. Just one of those things I guess. If I was doing regular solo stuff I would be OK with it I think. So its all back to doing stuff locally a bit I guess if I want to try and progress that side of things more. I really do find that I cant learn stuff just for the sake of it. I have to apply it somehow for it to stick. Although I can still learn new tricks I need a reason or an external challenge to spur me on and make it stick. Solo is a rare thing for me and to be honest really a last resort unless I turn it in to a piano bar thing with lots of standards (American song book 30s to 50s) and some originals. I just prefer working with others. It’s a little less intense.My performances are a bit variable at times I feel.
The sun is out as I write today. Another week of rain expected though. I have two rehearsals this week to fit in. But not much else. I looked at a song I have written, and played it. It’s not quite ripe for recording yet though. So in the meantime I have started working on another idea.
So here is a recent one to be getting on with instead:
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