So here we all are in June and the Sun’s out.

So hey guess what, more gigs and more rehearsals and bla de bla. This fine bunch is Skrum pictured at the Gallery In Sawbridgeworth recently.

Allegedly they won’t bite though you never really know. I also had an outing with Orchard. That’s what I call a young crowd.

So, I also recorded a new song: here it is:
Its called I give up, I guess. And believe me I nearly did.

So what else is new? I am Quite pleased I managed to do 2 rehearsals 30 miles apart from each other without getting stressed. For a brief glorious moment I felt as if I was I control.
Major problems with my finances at the moment. So I am no longer in pursuit.

Well now, so it was aliens after all or not.

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2023/jun/06/whistleblower-ufo-alien-tech-spacecraft

Apparently a former intelligence official turned whistleblower has given Congress and the Intelligence Community Inspector General extensive classified information about deeply covert programs that he says possess retrieved intact and partially intact craft of non-human origin. The information, he says, has been illegally withheld from Congress, and he filed a complaint alleging that he suffered illegal retaliation for his confidential disclosures, reported here for the first time. Other intelligence officials, both active and retired, with knowledge of these programs through their work in various agencies, have independently provided similar, corroborating information, both on and off the record. The whistleblower, David Charles Grusch, 36, a decorated former combat officer in Afghanistan, is a veteran of the National Geospatial-Intelligence Agency (NGA) and the National Reconnaissance Office (NRO). He served as the reconnaissance office’s representative to the Unidentified Aerial Phenomena Task Force from 2019-2021. From late 2021 to July 2022, he was the NGA’s co-lead for UAP analysis and its representative to the task force.” So there might be proof of advanced ET’s that the US has. That would be cool. I wish.

This was reported in the Guardian!

Well there is stuff happening alrighty. Turmoil possibly. I float along though unperturbed as if in a dream. Amazing. The weather has turned and is now doing spring stuff finally, so that’s a bit of a boost to the system at least. I still as though I haven’t slept for a week at present. I do hope it will wear off. Talking of which being a glutton for punishment I submitted a song to a song contest and just got a rejection as I didn’t get listed. It was one for oldies. Thank goodness I have other outlets. There were 3000 entries, so to be honest I can’t imagine how much of a listen anything could get? I certainly would not have had the patience to do it. Curiously the song I had rejected was a track BBC local radio were thinking about playing. Though I do stress the “Thinking” element. I have borrowed a friends bass as I used to have one to play on a couple o f recordings rather than using my usual keyboard ones. I am seeing if it inspires me to anything different by virtue of the different playing technique required. I am feeling a little jaded creatively and would like something to give my creative spark a bit of a lift.

I just looked in on a forum I use, it’s a social space and there is a Brexit thread. It’s like a religious cult with the leavers, they blame everything on Europe but none of them have any understanding of how the EU parliament worked. they stil bang on about sovereignty. No point in putting forward any facts, they are basically like the Trumpers. It just annoys me. Blaming the EU for the fact that the UK government did not invest in the north. It’s not investing in the north now either. You cannot put forward any counter arguments without being told to leave the country if you don’t like it. Positively Homearian levels of discourse and rhetoric LOL.

So sad to hear that Tina Turner has checked out at 83. She was great. In fact the best.

On the brighter side, I now have a new passport and a old folks bus pass. Go me. All I need is a bus now. it would help 😂 That’s all the news that’s new. Band rehearsals are continuing holiday breaks and personnel issues notwithstanding.

A Piano Tune for you.

Comparing last year with this one in May there is a lot more going on. Strange but I am a little jaded and bored as I type this.

Dreams. I used to have wild fantastic adventure dreams, or jeopardy dreams or alien invasion apocalyptic dreams. They were somewhat exhausting but not too frequent. Recently though my dreams are very different. Dear departed friends in ordinary situations and much like waking life in there flavour. I have had a lot of those recently. Perhaps it is a subconscious wish that things were the way they were again? They are more tiring though than the fantastical adventure movie type dreams and rather more disturbing. Perhaps they are simply a different manifestations of anxiety dreams? I have some concerns about things at present. I have always been prone to expecting things to go wrong, and still tend towards a mildly pessimistic outlook which is difficult to shake off. I am not an intellectual/academic or aspire/have pretensions to be one. I write and play music, mine and other peoples. I actually don’t want to pontificate too long on the woes of the world. Particularly as I get older I find.And the world is getting more woeful just at present it seems.

As I write this its a very quiet Sunday afternoon. I have worked on a piece of music I am recording for an hour but not much else. My various band projects are still a little stalled but moving forward slowly but they are still happening at least. I do miss the routine of regular gigs I used to have, but as they say that was then but this is now. I do find the loss of that regular pattern of weeks and weekends has drained my spirit more than somewhat now. The adrenaline flowing from playing and performing is not something I have experienced for a while except in a couple of odd and fleeting moments. So at present I am drifting around feeling permanently half asleep and have been the last couple of weeks. I feel as if I have used up all my supplies of adrenaline. Also I have virtually no motivation to do anything. Mostly I am not anxious which is good at least, but I do feel fatigued. Maybe something is out of kilter, though it could just be bad sleep?

I tried Dolby re-mastering on a song I recorded 2 years ago and I am pleasantly surprised with the result:

The sound is a bit more immediate and popish, if that’s a word? I have tried mastering plugins before a couple of times but results are definitely variable as they say. This time it has worked well.