Category Archives: Bi-polar

What is Bi-Polar

It’s a mad, mad world

My brain is a bit fried this week. Here is my latest tune. About the weird world of the interwebs sort of I guess. Meaning might though be in the eye of the beholder to an extent in this case perhaps.

Troll Me Susie

It’s a close sort of day cloudy, but also warm. And I am getting a bit bad tempered. I can’t seem to burn off the energy though I have been busy enough. I might be getting a bit hyper or manic perhaps? I am feeling a bit manic today. Not a good place to be in. These things go in cycles often with no rhyme or reason. A bit like anxiety attacks out of the blue. There is usually a trigger though I can’t seem to find it.

The business of creating music goes on, though it must be said some days are a real slog. An idea seems inspired then turns out to be insipid then often turns in to something else entirely if you are lucky. I often wonder what writers do, staring at a blank page. Perhaps repeated trips to the fridge in the hope of calorific or caffinised enlightenment? I drink tea but so much as I used to do.

Make a will if you and your partner are not married.

A tale of woe and English law


My sister is awaiting the distribution of her late partners estate. So far it has taken close to 3 years. She has been to court twice and the Judge ruled that in terms of his estate she should be treated as a spouse. (they were together in total for 40 years). Her concerns have also unsettled me. It is the case that she has missed various communications from her solicitors or has misunderstood them as they have not been clear or concise. She is finding it difficult to keep on top of things. There is virtually nothing that I can do to help her out. It may still be the case that the amount left in the estate is substantial but the final settlement and the amount has still not being made clear. Personally I do think it unreasonable that solicitors cannot clarify these matters in the simple form so that she might be able to plan going forward. She has multiple serious health issues to contend with. If the worst come to the worst we may have to put her up here but it will cause considerable friction. She would though then be homeless so we might be able to get some traction with local housing authorities though her fear is that they might place her in an OAP home as she now has multiple health problems. With regard to any moneys from the estate the solicitors can deduct any money owing first in law. So she could come out with very little which is perfectly legal in the UK. All this makes me feel rather sad.

I spoke to her today. I told her that she must ring the solicitors and ask directly when they will be paying the money out or if they are not why not They said they had the money from the court last week.I can’t get involved as I am not the client so they have no obligation to speak to me. I am trying very hard not get involved but is stressing me a lot. She has not got enough money to live on now. Her pensions do not cover the trips to hospital and so forth. She is still chasing her money. The court made the award for an interim payment 65 days ago on at the time of writing this.

June Musings or Thereabouts

Paying it forward. I was thinking about this today. Does it ever work? It mighty be worthy, it might even  make you feel better about yourself but I cant say that as far as I am aware personally anything ever comes back in my direction. Maybe I have had my share of good fortune and this is as good as it gets. I read a Sci Fi/Fantasy short story where I think a guy who had a lot of bad luck asked why and was informed by some supernatural being that it was simply because all the available  good luck had been used up. Perhaps that is how it works. Its all relative I guess and whilst I may bemoan my present state for many other it might well be  for them comparatively a state of bliss. If I were more successful I could do more in the way of good generally though perhaps?  A compilation of a few tunes below for your potential aural gratification.  One has to be so careful with the spelling. 

I have had a bit of a bad mental health day but its sorting itself out now finally. Its weird how these thing sneak up on you. Stuff suddenly triggers you and off you go raving and drooling and if you are very unlucky you end up scoring an own goal or two just to put the icing on the cake. I have been lucky for a while with that sort of thing for a few months, so I suppose I cant complain too much.

And the war in Ukraine rumbles on still sadly.

As Will wrote
“Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt.”