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So How Did We Get Here

The last couple of years have been a rough ride mentally for me and have left me somewhat exhausted.  One foot in front of the other and all that, a  day at a time and other cliches.  It’s hard though. I have learnt a few things though, mostly about myself. Things like, you can’t like or understand all of the people all of the time and trying to messes your head up. I have given up on trying to figure out other people’s motivations or at least trying to. I am also having trouble trusting people and getting perhaps a little paranoid. That’s I guess the effect of years depression sadly. I suppose it may make me seem just a bit unfriendly but I used to be a lot jumpier a few years back unbelievably.      

I have just got my latest release approved “Moving Through The Vale” which will be available on Amazon Apple Spotify and so forth from October 22. The title is a bit ambiguous but what’s life if we can’t have  a little mystery. 

This track is not on the release though.

I am spending far too much time watching old retro TV at the moment. Its comfortable like an old blanket on the sofa perhaps.  It  is an aid to sanity in a small way. Easy access to the familiar. I used to wonder why so many older people seemed to live in the past. Now I know though I never thought I would feel that way.

   

   

       

Mostly waiting for something

So what have I been up to? Music and music and music mostly. Including a vaguely Rick Wakeman style thing that actually worked rather better than I though it would.
Here it is then for your delectation and delight. 

Apart from that rehearsals for a project with John Bickley’s invisible folk club are continuing fuel permitting.  The Bedford region monsoon season seems to have started now too.  Attempts to write a more straight forward song once in  a wile have not yet born fruit. 

I have just submitted a new album for release on Amazon Apple and Spotify and so forth called “Moving Through The Vale”.  It should be released on the 22 October. 
I think at present I am getting a little bit crazy and locked into a self-referential loop .  I need a bit of outside input I think. 

 

 

Just History Repeating Itself Again.

It’s not been a good day.  3 Steps forward and 2 back again. Any attempt to simplify one’s life inevitably turns out to give the reverse of that outcome. Perhaps it is an unwritten  law of the universe?  Still we are in uncharted waters here. 

I had view of the still pictures from the video shoot I did recently with Jon Bickley. Some interesting and characterful shots among them. They do not look at all as if they have been shot in the garden of a terraced house at all.

Mostly I am carrying on with what I normally do, recording, writing and I am involved in some side projects too.  So I have stuff going on and I am keeping busy with it.  I am struggling a bit on a personal level at present and I am taking things day to day as much as possible.  I feel outside everything now as if the world has lost its meaning to me. I heed to do things day to day to keep going but I am feeling totally numb.  It’s unlike my previous depressive episodes in its feelings and flavours.  It’s pretty weird.

I am still writing music though perhaps I am like a hamster on a wheel racing to nowhere at times. It can feel like that. The seasons changing now and I think this winter is going to be a difficult one for me to get through as I have lost my compass.