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Footloose and Fancy Free

Lets just relax and float down stream. And take a deep breath and that’s better. And don’t be scared of your own thoughts, which I have been recently. Occasionally I put something on TIkTok and there are some very strange people there judging by some of the comments at times. But hey that’s OK. It getting my music a few plays, which is sort of the point.
But is any publicity good publicity? I am not sure. But as they say you are a long time dead so why worry. Currently I am recording a backing track for a new song and I intend to use all the vocal trickery I can muster on it once the lyrics are clear in my head. I have a few notions brewing up on a couple of subjects that make be worth a song. Rehearsals carry on as usual as with 3 bands. yesterday I had two with different acts and also it required about 3 plus hours to get from one to the other driving. Occasionally it gets confusing I must admit. But its better to be doing something again especially after the end of the old act in February 2020 and the 2 years in the wilderness during lockdown. That was hard and it took more out of me than I thought at the time. Its been much harder getting back in the saddle than I ever imagined. But I am back though it must be said in a much more limited way.

Here is a cheary song for you all.

Can you see the real me, everything is performative at times.

What Am I Like, You Really Don’t Want To Know.

Yep, my mind is a mixture of quite disturbing thoughts at times. Well it is at the time of writing. My goodness there goes another one. I am all a flutter. Gadzooks. I have been working a lot of trying to improve my fitness post Covid and lockdown and all that jazz. I think its working but I have equally well been getting more and more irritable and impatient to. My life is very quiet compared to how things were 5 years ago when I was still playing regular gigs and a lot of other stuff was also occupying my time too. Now I have time to think. Thinking can lead one to dangerous places which is why perhaps so many people on Facebook, X and so forth don’t even bother to attempt it?

A friend said I seemed irritable. Well lately I think I often am. Mostly with the universe in general. I am quite a full on sort of person when I get going. I can be a bit fiery. Perhaps I am a dragon…I also have to remember not to interject oaths and swearing in my conversations. I am constantly twitchy and tend to fidget. If I were giving a lecture I would be pacing from side to side rather than standing at the podium I think.

Here is a new song. Piano and Vocals. The latest keyboard I have has a really decent piano samples on it that make for a little more subtly that is very apparent on recordings.

Never Again As Friends

When I was younger and very naive I thought I would never understand why people would start to lean on alcohol and drugs as a crutch. Well I think I have it figured out now. I feel I have built a wall between me and the rest of the world. Partly for protection and partly due to just feeling other. I really don’t know what I can do about that now. Passing time has made me cynical too. If I do last a little while longer, I need to make a change or two so that my mind survives in good order even if my body does not.

This Seems Appropriate

Yes, it’s the mood of the day, the center cannot hold. Yates and all that. The sudden evening silence breaks in my room. It’s not a good day so far as I write this. A lot of stuffs been going wrong and I am not coping well at all. I watched some video of an english guy (about 50 years old) that lives in rural Russia on YouTube. The sanctions have no effect on lifestyle except minor irritations with getting a few spare parts, the shop and shopping malls are all well stocked. Unless you are called up or a family member is, its a case of “War? , what war…”
So I think we can say that that one will run and run.

Today was an annoying day with computer problems as well… Ho Hum. One problem is sorted and the other hopefully will be at some point tomorrow or Thursday if the backup loads OK.

So not a creative day at all. My spirits a bit lost at present.