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Thinking Time

Autumn is finally here. The weather is having a last burst of eccentricity to confuse us all. I am still in limbo to an extent waiting on others for various projects to start.
Today has been  a mostly  frustrating day for all sorts of reasons though there have some little victories. Also a lot of thinking time, in fact rather too much of it t be honest.   We are out of lockdown now but for me  little has changed. Many of my friends are back to business as usual now gigging with  their bands in pubs and clubs pretty much as they were pre-pandemic. I do feel slight pangs at not being in a similar situation but then covid was only part of the problem of course.  So i shall have to trust that something will turn up along the way.  In truth I have been challenged and changed by events and I don’t think I have the confidence to front anything now. If there is a spot for me though I hope I shall be able to step up to the mark.  Nothing is ever certain of course. 

I feel very fragile these days for want of a  better word and to be honest I have only  just about finally escaped living in the past with luck. My old life as it was is gone. I hope if I am spared to set out on a new different path if its allowed. At present the days though have very little to distinguish between them. Weekends used to be the highlight. Friday Saturday Sunday for gigs. But that was then and this is now, the new normal. Perhaps a bit too normal to be honest.  I hope I can rekindle my enthusiasm as it seems to have waned more than a little. 

I have been recruited for a local band that hopes to play a bit of 60/70s style psych and folk and stuff. They are still trying to recruit a guitarist at present and it seems to be more difficult than they had expected.  it would be rather fun if that came together. Fingers knees and toes crossed.

This time last year we had sunshine and good weather. Not this time. Its dull and blowy and generally not great. I had thought to try and get some pictures of autumn  hues. It won’t be today though.  My mind is wandering and I cant focus on anything.  So here is a riffy violin and guitar instrumental tune for you all. 

      

 

 

 

       

So How Did We Get Here

The last couple of years have been a rough ride mentally for me and have left me somewhat exhausted.  One foot in front of the other and all that, a  day at a time and other cliches.  It’s hard though. I have learnt a few things though, mostly about myself. Things like, you can’t like or understand all of the people all of the time and trying to messes your head up. I have given up on trying to figure out other people’s motivations or at least trying to. I am also having trouble trusting people and getting perhaps a little paranoid. That’s I guess the effect of years depression sadly. I suppose it may make me seem just a bit unfriendly but I used to be a lot jumpier a few years back unbelievably.      

I have just got my latest release approved “Moving Through The Vale” which will be available on Amazon Apple Spotify and so forth from October 22. The title is a bit ambiguous but what’s life if we can’t have  a little mystery. 

This track is not on the release though.

I am spending far too much time watching old retro TV at the moment. Its comfortable like an old blanket on the sofa perhaps.  It  is an aid to sanity in a small way. Easy access to the familiar. I used to wonder why so many older people seemed to live in the past. Now I know though I never thought I would feel that way.

   

   

       

Mostly waiting for something

So what have I been up to? Music and music and music mostly. Including a vaguely Rick Wakeman style thing that actually worked rather better than I though it would.
Here it is then for your delectation and delight. 

Apart from that rehearsals for a project with John Bickley’s invisible folk club are continuing fuel permitting.  The Bedford region monsoon season seems to have started now too.  Attempts to write a more straight forward song once in  a wile have not yet born fruit. 

I have just submitted a new album for release on Amazon Apple and Spotify and so forth called “Moving Through The Vale”.  It should be released on the 22 October. 
I think at present I am getting a little bit crazy and locked into a self-referential loop .  I need a bit of outside input I think.