July begins

So a good start as I recorded a song which seemed to go rather well with people.

Here it is:

The first verse:

A bit of the lyric. The first verse.

“I want to go back to the fields of the past, where you walked in dreams.
Nothing needed to be said, it was all in our heads and we understood.
Will you trust me to do the best for you even though I tell a lie its better that way?
The scent on the fields in the evening is sweet won’t you trust me to show my loving deceits”

My dilemma is should I tell some one the truth and risk losing their friendship but stray sane or keep a friendship but at the risk of cracking up even further and being more isolated. Us human beans cant always handle the truth
Its possible that the truth though might deepen the friendship to everybody’s mutual benefit though?
Or maybe I will just chicken out and write an obscure song about it.

Well after a couple of quite positive days with lots of good stuff going on today was a little bit rotten lots of aches and pains a huge dose of anxiety there is plans not working out at all all I had intended to be going out for a bit of a bike ride…

I think a major cause of the anxiety is the element of going a bit stir crazy I’ve just been in way too much for too long and whilst there are places to go to round here it’s not that much fun on your own. Particularly if you are feeling a bit fragile

So instead of reacting to my present reality little subconscious bits of me are kicking of because of injustices done 50 years ago.