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So How Did We Get Here

The last couple of years have been a rough ride mentally for me and have left me somewhat exhausted.  One foot in front of the other and all that, a  day at a time and other cliches.  It’s hard though. I have learnt a few things though, mostly about myself. Things like, you can’t like or understand all of the people all of the time and trying to messes your head up. I have given up on trying to figure out other people’s motivations or at least trying to. I am also having trouble trusting people and getting perhaps a little paranoid. That’s I guess the effect of years depression sadly. I suppose it may make me seem just a bit unfriendly but I used to be a lot jumpier a few years back unbelievably.      

I have just got my latest release approved “Moving Through The Vale” which will be available on Amazon Apple Spotify and so forth from October 22. The title is a bit ambiguous but what’s life if we can’t have  a little mystery. 

This track is not on the release though.

I am spending far too much time watching old retro TV at the moment. Its comfortable like an old blanket on the sofa perhaps.  It  is an aid to sanity in a small way. Easy access to the familiar. I used to wonder why so many older people seemed to live in the past. Now I know though I never thought I would feel that way.

   

   

       

September 2021 whats a foot then

Out of my studio window i can see the moon as the sun sets on the opposite side of the house. It always feels magical to see the moon in a still blue sky as it did when I was a child.  I am wrestling with lyrics again and a sudden rush of writer’s block. I have no words again but a  good hooky track waiting for a vocal. I need inspiration not perspiration.  

A hint of something new has popped up on the horizon musically in terms of side projects. I shan’t get too excited yet about it.  We live in hope and all that though.
But just maybe….

I am still not feeling that well.  Headaches and tiredness but not covid. its very tedious.   

 

 

My car is due for MOT next week and I wonder if it will pass. I have no idea at all.  So fingers and toes crossed and all that. Cars are skittish things at times  and unpredictable unless you are a guru versed in the sacred knowledge.  A mere acolyte may well be lead astray when tiptoeing  in to the realm of  such dark and arcane matters. 

I am quite glad that I don’t have too much going on at the moment to be honest. A very nice moonscape again tonight. I think on balance I quite like having our balcony rather than one of those small patio/gardens as the outlook is really rather nice. I remembered the gist of what the song idea I had in the bath was about. I will let that ferment a bit. I think I am sort of going through a change at present. I am seeing the world very differently all of a sudden. It is perhaps a change in priorities in some sense. 

At present I seem to spend half the day in a revery and the rest being creative sort of on the music side. Before I would have got bored or frustrated but the pace seems to suit me at present. I feel as if I am gathering together the separate threads of my life and allowing them to reorder themselves somehow. Its difficult to explain but I had a similar feeling when I started to recover from my last major bout of depression about 14 years ago that I had remained the same somehow but now inhabited an altered but reasonably familiar world that I had wandered into.