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Stuf that I can’t fit anywhere else…

What Am I Like, You Really Don’t Want To Know.

Yep, my mind is a mixture of quite disturbing thoughts at times. Well it is at the time of writing. My goodness there goes another one. I am all a flutter. Gadzooks. I have been working a lot of trying to improve my fitness post Covid and lockdown and all that jazz. I think its working but I have equally well been getting more and more irritable and impatient to. My life is very quiet compared to how things were 5 years ago when I was still playing regular gigs and a lot of other stuff was also occupying my time too. Now I have time to think. Thinking can lead one to dangerous places which is why perhaps so many people on Facebook, X and so forth don’t even bother to attempt it?

A friend said I seemed irritable. Well lately I think I often am. Mostly with the universe in general. I am quite a full on sort of person when I get going. I can be a bit fiery. Perhaps I am a dragon…I also have to remember not to interject oaths and swearing in my conversations. I am constantly twitchy and tend to fidget. If I were giving a lecture I would be pacing from side to side rather than standing at the podium I think.

Here is a new song. Piano and Vocals. The latest keyboard I have has a really decent piano samples on it that make for a little more subtly that is very apparent on recordings.

Never Again As Friends

When I was younger and very naive I thought I would never understand why people would start to lean on alcohol and drugs as a crutch. Well I think I have it figured out now. I feel I have built a wall between me and the rest of the world. Partly for protection and partly due to just feeling other. I really don’t know what I can do about that now. Passing time has made me cynical too. If I do last a little while longer, I need to make a change or two so that my mind survives in good order even if my body does not.

This Seems Appropriate

Yes, it’s the mood of the day, the center cannot hold. Yates and all that. The sudden evening silence breaks in my room. It’s not a good day so far as I write this. A lot of stuffs been going wrong and I am not coping well at all. I watched some video of an english guy (about 50 years old) that lives in rural Russia on YouTube. The sanctions have no effect on lifestyle except minor irritations with getting a few spare parts, the shop and shopping malls are all well stocked. Unless you are called up or a family member is, its a case of “War? , what war…”
So I think we can say that that one will run and run.

Today was an annoying day with computer problems as well… Ho Hum. One problem is sorted and the other hopefully will be at some point tomorrow or Thursday if the backup loads OK.

So not a creative day at all. My spirits a bit lost at present.

Not So Happy Fridays

Ouch, I have had some unexpected emergency dental work done. I feel like I have been in a fight. Ouch again. Teeth are sneaky, you think they are fine then suddenly and randomly something happens. Out of nowhere. So I am feeling a bit sorry for myself as in bruised and battered but pleased that I managed to get treatment quickly. It’s been a rough day though.
It seems harder to get over these things as time goes by. I also got soaked on the way to the appointment as well so other aches and pains as well.

So no creative stuff today really. I have watched a lot of YouTube to distract myself and absent mindedly picking out stuff on guitar. I found a spark of an idea lurking though even so. And I wrote stuff down just in case.