Well who would have thought it?

Basically UK Public Schools (as in private fee paying for our international audience) Fuck you up mentally it’s says here.
Not only that, but its a design feature, an inherent part of the system. Well its not really news is it, but it explains a lot.
No wonder a lot of Europeans think we are weird…

And why we are doomed….

Think I might actually buy this book.

Wounded Leaders: the Psychohistory of British Elitism and the Entitlement Illusion

Yep,  it’s been one of those weeks. My car is making weird noises and I need to get it sorted soon. I discover I have a broken crown when I go to the dentist(which I hate). My motivation is sadly lacking and the last tune I was working on ground to a halt.
Prince dying was a real downer too of course. I was not a massive fan, perhaps because there is not enough time to listen to everything that’s out there, so I may have missed out. On the plus side I had a really good gig with the Delta Ladies last night down in Dorking that was a very  pleasant surprise. Tomorrow night  I am playing at  the Mitre in Barnet which is a very good pub,  but sadly a long way from Battersea so I can’t drop in as often as I would like.  That should be fun. I wish the weather would get its act together though, as I could do with a bit of the warm stuff. I do tend to veer between getting bogged down in gloom and floating along thinking everything is cool, so I am in an odd space at present.

I do suffer from a constant anxiety and I am also a raving hypochondriac. When I was younger I had dread full panic attacks, often waking in the middle of the night. As years have gone by I have graduated towards a general low level existential angst.  Thats where my heads at now. I don’t want feel I  live in a world that feels as those the bad guys are mostly winning but that is how it feels now.  I also have a lot of guilt about being me and living in a world that I feel I am somewhat of an outsider in.

Once upon a time in Scarborough. perhaps this is why I have never been back lol.

Thanks to Helen for preserving this on video from 2002. 14 years ago. Its not that bad. I have never managed to get a decent version of this song on disc yet. may be I should revisit it.

Last sunday I played at Rye Wax (in Peckham), which is a Record shop and sells those funny things with a hole in the middle that make noises. It was rather fun. its possibly one of the hippest places i have been seen in so far.  A darkish basement with a bar and a record store and food, and lots of very nice people.
So I am a hipster now init.