So I have arrived at here, but it’s not the place I expected it to be. That is to say it looks very different on finally arriving than I expected.

So what do I mean by this. Well as to my physical health, I am still here today (that’s about all I can say), but my mental health has been wonky for years. I feel I am drifting as I don’t seen to have too much drive to do stuff at present. Is it ageing. Yes, and no I guess. I have been producing a lot of music and I do get out to play live again a little, but I don’t feel like planning for the next big adventure so much anymore. Hopefully it’s just a passing phase. Autumn always has a whiff of things being over. This Autumn it seems even more intense somehow. I guess that is where my heads at now.

A few friends seem to be having troubles and uncertainty too. Perhaps it’s catching 🙂 I am trying to figure out what to do if my car doesn’t pass its MOT. Is it time to get back to being a one car household? Not sure. It might work? Choices are hard at times. Just been for a dental check up and I am OK at present. I hate going to the dentists. I had a lot of work done as a child including a lot of extractions in one go with gas and its left me feeling anxious at the dentists all these years later.