Here’s is an oldie but I think a goodie from me: it needs a bit more love.
High Summer

I am finding things a little difficult personally at present. I guess its just the way of the world. One of the hardest things I have found in life is that for me my word is pretty much my bond unless there is a major problem like an earthquake or similar if I say I will be there I will be there. I have always placed loyalty over everything but also not giving my word to commit to something I cant fulfill. I try to give people the benefit of the doubt but I am really beginning to lose faith latterly in much of what I am doing and wondering if it’s just me getting it wrong or taking it too much to heart. So much of life seems to be people saying one thing and doing the polar opposite. Maybe it was ever thus?

I have this contradiction going on. Half of me wants to give up and half of me needs there to be more… I don’t feel too positive today at all. I need a tribe/gang to be part of again… Socially and music speaking of course.
There are an awful lot of very lonely people around my age, mostly blokes (Facebook proves that in many ways evidentaily). Divorced and so forth. The women do better generally in terms of social support from their peers if they are widowed or divorced or singletons for any other reason. I do need to put myself back into circulation socially but I just don’t seem to get out of the door at present. Is it depression of a sort perhaps?

Car service and MOT for the UP was only £135 each going halves with my SO Alison so that’s a result. Hurrah 🙂 No advisory’s again either. Looking at the millage last year was a bit higher with me using it but just on 6000 which is fine. its was doing about 5000 a year before. My Picasso is still chugging on as well. A dose of injector cleaner seems to have cleared its arteries a bit. I do need to sort the headlamps out though as the lenses are a bit dim.

Amazed that my somewhat hesitant piano and vocal performance the other morning of ‘its been a long, long time’ has clocked up 850 views on Facebook. Maybe I should think about a solo act of some sort after all?
I am still having a fight with very low moods though, a sort of depression ‘lite’ I guess would describe it. Its nearly midsummer but we are having what might almost be April showers. Its been very not but also very cool for this time of year too. Everything is out totally out of wac as the saying goes.

Here’s is an oldie but I think a goodie from me: it needs a bit more love.

High Summer