Category Archives: Musings

FOMO and more

February 25, 2024Musingsdiana Stone

Well I messed up again. I tried to get along to a songwriters showcase locally to listen and didn’t get through the door. I have had a really bad time in the last few weeks trying to do stuff on my own to form a few more connections in my local area and its not working. I have lost a lot of confidence recently again I think, after building it up again. I am not too sure why.
My levels of anxiety have dropped over the last couple of years which is good. I do feel a little burned-out. It’s mental and physical as I have feel tired. To often I am looking for excuses not to do things. Most mornings its a real struggle to get out of bed too. Partly due to arthritis, but by no means entirely. My mental health always seems to hit the lowest ebb between February and March. This year though after doing OK even through lockdown I seem to have lost my mojo again. I am living vicariously through social media. So what’s the answer? I haven’t got a clue. But I do have ongoing projects and I have gigs in the book with the acts I play in so actually maybe it’s not so bad.

This lot are in part my salvation for live performances again. I don’t lack confidence performing at all, though I do sometimes get a bit anxious beforehand. My problem is all about trying to meet new people. I am hopeless at it. I really am.

Anyway here is a tune of mine from last year:

A lot of Anger Pointed At The Wrong People

February 21, 2024Delta Ladies, Diana Stones Songs, glass cage, music, Musings, other, Pianodiana Stone

When I was in my 20s to 30’s I can honestly say I lived a fairly sheltered life. But when a set of circumstances caused me to change to a very different sort of working environment I was slowly but surely exposed to many challenges about how I thought the world was, as opposed to how it actually is or was. My eyes and ears were opened. Even now though I am still stunned by much that I see and hear from supposedly educated people. Times and circumstances changed and new lessons were learned. At least in my case I believe, but perhaps it is not the same for others? And it’s difficult to have any sort of reasoned discussion with anyone quite often now. Also facts are considered to be subjective and mutable now and the thing called alternate truth which apparently exists now. It’s difficult for me to really clearly define what is happening as my vocabulary often feels inadequate when I respond. I am always worried that my comments might be misinterpreted and misunderstood.

There seem to be so many fake profiles on facebook now. I have just seen one with a verified tick but the profile name bears no relation to the url? Bot perhaps or good old fashioned troll.

Due to a set of unexpected circumstances’ I find I have a rather low key week ahead. I will try and make use of it somehow though if I can. I am keeping up the usual routine as much as I can.

Diana Stones Glasscage · Diana Stones latest

A well of sleep

February 18, 2024Diana Stones Songs, glass cage, Musingsdiana Stone

Physically I am tired, though I do sleep reasonably well. I have very little confidence about going out socially on my own at present, (though I do have abit of social contact but really not quite enough) and it is making me feel a bit isolated. I am not too sure what to do about that really as my best laid plans don’t seem to be working at all. I had hoped by now it would get easier but its not working that way. I suppose fundamentally we cannot change our personality type. It’s a nuisance though. At present in between the odd gig, rehearsals and writing and recording I am watching far to much you tube. I have lost it somewhere along the way. Maybe it’s just the effect of getting a little older. Making friends is hard. Or rather finding a good close friend that you can trust is hard. Really hard. I must make the effort somehow.

Shouting in a Bucket
This song is 7 years old now. That is a surprise.

Its obvious that there are a lot of inaccurate populist notions about gender/sex built mostly on fear that are exploited on both sides (and by politicians for cheap votes) and unsophisticated people will and do fall for it. And of course it helps distract from stuff like “people in small boats” and supporting a nation with military aid that is committing war crimes….In other news, I still have a decent following for my Music in both Russia and Ukraine according to my play stats. How inclusive am I then. Another moan, why is it people always assume that one has never done research into anything before commenting. Perhaps because most keyboard warriors don’t perchance?

The suns is shining again here as I type this. The daylight is lasting a little longer too now.

I have also been putting some music on TikTok as they now distribute tracks too. I am not sure how useful it is but the tracks do rack up a decent number of plays statistically if you post them with a slideshow or video.

Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O, no! it is an ever-fixed mark,
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose worth’s unknown, although his height be taken.
Love’s not Time’s fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle’s compass come;
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.

—William Shakespeare

I got into a Facebook discussion against my better judgement and am feeling a bit battered by it to be honest.

On Facebook the rule seems to be never “Never let a fact get in the way”.
“What larks, Pip, what larks”
I have learnt my lesson….