Category Archives: Musings

When I’m 64 …..

Musings

So how did that happen?  Apparently physics may have been involved and the gradual progress towards entropy and the heat death of the universe, though time as we understand it may well be an illusion when viewed through the optics of modern relativistic science of course.

 I honestly had not considered what to do next.  I have managed to achieve  more that I expected in many ways and I am relatively happy with that. Even with out covid-19 putting obstacles in my path at this point change would still be necessary. I spent around 17 years being heavily involved in live music as a performer as well as my own solo work. That all stopped completely in February 2020 when I played my last last gig, apart from a guest appearance as part  of the invisible folk club ensemble in late summer.  That was enjoyable but pretty much a one off though. So its been hard to try and keep positive about anything really. the unexpected deaths of two close friends have knocked the stuffing out of me. Hopefully spring will lift me a little when it comes. 

I am very sad that there is to be no EU musicians visa and that the reason for this is we are told is  because of  the need to control our borders.  Presumably that’s to stop us Brits  from being able to escape fortress “little” Britain  🙂

  At the time of writing Donald Trump has left the White House and Joe Biden is just arriving. Strange days indeed. 

 

More January 2021 thoughts

Diana Stones Songs, music, Musings, piano works

So due to the various problems that I’m having with my back and joints I am now resorting to dictating more than typing and unfortunately there’s not much I can do about that

It’s been quite disturbing to see there is reports of the police behaving aggressively in relation to their perceived notions of breaches or lockdown especially as it is quite clear that mostly interventions have been wrong and overzealous.
The  notion that it’s unsafe for example to exercise your dogs in an area of open countryside where they may actually not be other people for as much as 300 m or more.We also have government ministers trying to defend the indefensible.

Mostly due to their own incompetence and lack of understanding of the fundamentals of the situation.

Here is a recent solo piano work, which is a jazz/classical crossover. its played on a Yamaha Piano, but just unfortunately not the one shown 🙂 its  a bit moody and maybe a little weird but hey its me so what do you expect. 

I am quite upset set at present and also so trying to avoid falling into a fairly major depressive relapse. The notion of no reasonable social contact for potentially another 9 to 10 months is really  hard to deal with.
Personally I do actually believe that unless it is the degree of reasonableness people will cease to comply with any restrictions. For people like myself the days pretty much merge together and I do try and use this time to do something productive as much as it is possible to do so. Other difficulties which occur are not merely due to isolation but for example in my particular circumstances the only person I see day to day is my partner and I’ve only had face-to-face contact with two or three other people in the course of nearly a year unless you include the occasional encounter with a shop assistant.
Looking at the number of deaths in the UK from covid-19 I can imagine a scenario where it does actually hit 200000 Mark it certainly I think going to be well in excess of 100000 even if there’s a miracle.
So it makes you wonder what’s next martial law perhaps it still won’t make any difference because the Gene is already out of the bottle. I’m not really too sure what what the future is likely to bring at all for me personally. 80s I’m going to have major problems with my mental health soon if I’m not careful as I’m getting near the limit of tolerance on many matters.
Jotting down my random thoughts in this fashion is is quite satisfying as I’m not taking as much as I would be if I was actually typing thank goodness. It has been a hard couple of years though and it really doesn’t look as if it’s going to get any easier.

Back to lockdown again

Musings

So the second week in 201 and we are back in a national lockdown as predicted to be fair as there could be no other outcome realistically. So its introspection central here again. Today I have not ben outside the flat, but I did get out into the countryside yesterday which lifted my spirits for the day. Today though was not so good. I have been working on a recording of a new song and it was a bit exhausting to get it done.Ii am not sure  how well its worked to be honest. Due to personal circumstances I have not done so well as I hoped although I now have all the resources I ever imagined I would or could possibly need.  Some how it seems I have arrived at the port of destination but the ship I hoped to meet there is not in the dock. Its cold and it’s winter but the sky’s been beautiful today at least with the distant tree line on the hills hinting of some new adventure in more normal times. But at present that’s not very likely.  My fellow travelers are gone and I am here like a reluctant hobbit spirited back to the shire after a grand adventure but finding nothing is the same anymore. And of course the pubs are still shut. 

There is a lot of anger about the present restrictions and many people are beginning to feel that that nothing will make any difference.  The first vaccinations  will not be completed until March or possibly April. So restrictions could well be quite severe for a while. How ever it will make very little difference to me now personally now due to the events of the last couple  of years which have left me out on a limb socially and in most other ways as well.