Out with the Old and in with the?

I am not a big fan of November.  I have said it….

So things are starting to to happen it seems. The first rehearsal with the band I have joined  is now in the book. Its a while since I was last in a practice room. 2004 was the last time when I was auditioning for a band called Elephant Shelf in a place in Barnet  A full circle almost.  So I am learning a few songs I never thought I would ever attempt to play.  It is a challenge as its very different to anything I have done for a very long time as it requires a very different mindset. Will it work? I hope so.

It occured to me that at times i do feel a bit useless, regardless of what I may or may not have achieved. Again though may be its too much time ruminating. I did manage to do a few things today, despite feeling a bit off. We have been living here for nearly 4 years now. This years been tough mentally though. so I do hope that the few green shoots that have sprung up in the last couple of months socially and musically can be nourished and sustained.

Today has been a tough one. The ongoing  problems with my back and related issues continue. Some days are better than others. Exercise helps but its hard when your aching even though you know that it will help. Getting out of bed is an effort recently as I just can’t  seem to be bothered.  I am still feeling anxious too a lot of the time.  Keeping busy helps  a bit though.  
So here is a very recent recording. 

See what you think