Sometimes it’s really hard not to feel incredibly jaundiced about everything.  The harder you try to get toward your objective the further away it gets. There are some hopeful signs on the horizon its true.  People can be rather disappointing when they behave exactly as predicted, but predictable they certainly are. More and more we seem to live in a joyless environment where everything with any spark of originality is treated like some unpleasant boil that requires lancing. I seem to be coming to a pivital moment in my life,  when I will either going on to greater things or fall flat on my face. Strangely enough it seems unimportant now as if I am observing events happening in someone else’ s  life seen at a slight distance.  I do have friends though and that’s a good thing.