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Delta Ladies, Diana Stones Songs, glass cage, Musings,
Orchard The Trio
Orchard The Trio in Rehearsal Diana Clare and Brian

I am now 4 weeks past my covid infection (which lasted 3 weeks in total). I feel very fatigued and I am still getting headaches too. I have gone back into rehearsals with the bands I am in and that’s has been far more tiring than I was expecting it to be.  But its a start. We have only just had a break in the weather with storms and very heavy rain. The temperature is back to seasons norms which is  a great relief though we need much more rain. The grass is starting to fight its way back towards something partially resembling green again. And the trees have been watered on the ornamental green opposite.   

I really find it difficult to concentrate with the world falling into chaos and this country falling in to Chaos along with it. Will we all be here next year and if we are what sort of state will we be in by then. I am really not too sure. Surely everything must end. How can it continue? 

“Dictators have an old trick to assess the strength of their opposition: they say something patently untrue, and then look to see who mindlessly repeats it. Those who do, they recognise as their true supporters”.
Barry Gardiner

“No matter who comes to Belarusian land, I will fight. Even if it is Putin”.
Alexander Lukashenko

It’s all some sort of madness that must be endured.  As usual I am working away on musical projects of various sorts, so nothing new to report at present on that front really.

 

Pending review

Musings,

Well today was a bad day. I felt very low, sometimes however much I try things just get on top of me. I get angry, frustrated and all logic goes out of the window.  That’s one of the gifts depression brings to the party.   So today I have been trying unsuccessfully to shift my mood with many distractions.  Listening to music from my teenage years Neal Young, Elton John, Hendrix, Yes and also a bit of other stuff like the Dudley Moore trio. !968 to 1972 in particular was an incredible time more music and revisiting it helped me a bit.  I am still fighting it out with a French Language course but being dyslexic doesn’t really help to much, but I can’t give up. So many times in my life it seems as though I have had to though.  Its very frustrating, or maybe I am a lot stupider than I thought I was.

I also started recording a track which will be a song once I have sorted the lyrics into some sort of order. I spent a couple of hours working on that.  I think it might be a reasonable number if I can get a good enough vocal on it. I can sing but my voice is not going to win awards. In the past I did work with some guest vocalists on some collaboration’s but personal circumstances make that a bit difficult to do here.

Also I am listening to the sound and production on recordings I really like to see if I can get some sort of warmth into my own stuff. Some of the 70’s stuff is particularly appealing. Perhaps I need to open the doors up figuratively and literally  and try again?

Now I am a bit wary of people and i am not always a good judge of character, I can be easily fooled or duped if I don’t keep my wits about me.  Also I often get suspicious of peoples  motives and that can get me in trouble if I misinterpret them. The trouble is often ends up with me feeling isolated and cutting myself off from opportunity.

 

Goodbye 2016

Musings

On a personal level it’s not been too bad a year. A couple of disappointments, and the inevitable couple of stitch-ups by people who should know better. I should not really be taken in so easily. Often though when you loose out on one opportunity something better turns up though in many cases. By this stage in my life I should really expect that sort of thing,  so perhaps its just naivety.  I do get disappointed because I usually expect people to be reasonable, and not full of shit or to try and con me.  Still if I was that good a judge of human nature I might be doing a bit better now than I am in some respects.    Of course there is also the mass insanity of the brexit crew, which seems to have brought in its wake a lot of very bad behaviour.  I am still waiting for a sensible reason for leaving, so give me some sort of reasoned argument and try and convince me. Why is there only a deafening silence?   So I shall plod along with my various musical efforts and continue my battle with facing often the futility of endeavoring to achieve anything, but carry on doing it anyway as you do.

So is there a point? No you just roll along and stuff happens and sometimes its good and sometimes its not, That really seems to be it. Everything else that happens seems to be random and not bound by the laws of causality, except for the odd signposted train wreck that you can spot.

Quite often I wonder why I write this stuff. I suppose it’s a way of letting off steam and thats it really. My problem is that if you are fighting depression you want positive stuff to happen, but you dare not get too excited about anything as its frequently a disappointment. So how does one keep positive? Answers on a postcard please.

The thing I have lacked for a couple of years now is energy and the ability to really keep applying myself, but lately I just want to give up and I really do despair about it.
There are not to many people left that I am able to talk to…

Perhaps 2017 is the year for a reboot?