Diana Stone Sunny uplands

Bad for the right reasons or good for the wrong ones?

Sometimes when I consider my life I feel I have often been morally ambiguous.  That’s what happens when there is too much time to think. I don’t think I have done anything that bad but I have broken a few rules.  Though I rather suspect that applies to most of us.
Today’s  been a mixed bag. I was quite happily being a bit creative writing and playing and then a small movement and I was in agony’s again. Very annoying and frustrating and painful.   

Many people have not actually noticed the passing of time. They view the world as being as it was when they left uni or school. They really don’t’ pick up much else in the way of knowledge if they are not academics or involved in civics/politics in the course of their working lives. Perhaps they use fairly partisan news sources and don’t follow theatre and culture generally. So to them the world is perpetually the 60s 70s and 80s and the internet is not really used to gain knowledge much, it’s just for entertainment. had I remained a van driver for my working life, whilst I might still have been deeply involved in music I would have learnt very much of anything else I suspect. I certainly would not have had any strong political views, left or right on the center. My world ran on railway tracks pretty much.   

He who fights with monsters might take care lest he thereby become a monster. And if you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you.

We have art in order not to die of the truth.
Friedrich Nietzsche

Let the music play:

Beginning Ending or Middle

I  am lost and clueless.  And my mind is blank.  We write a script for our lives and at a certain point we reach the last chapter. But what if everything does not stop there. Then what?  Today has been an unintentional rest. I got very stressed yesterday and today I have just stopped. I am not sure why. Perhaps because I dont feel there is much I can do except have a bit of faith that some answers will come to me eventually. Sometimes perhaps to paraphrase “Do or do not there is no try” one should say rather “Do not or try”.  I feel personally I am at the end of things, though rationally it does not make sense.  Its a very uncomfortable feeling and profoundly  disturbing.  Just waiting for the doom to strike out of a clear blue sky.   

 ‘We know what we are, but know not what we may be.’

(Hamlet, Act 4, Scene 5)