I wonder what you have in store for me then.  Suns out and I have a Delta Ladies gig to play this afternoon in Sandridge, which is just  a tad to the NE of St Albans.  Its threatening to rain though so fingers crossed it won’t be too bad it it does. My mood is still scraping along the bottom most of the time. I need to try and get free of it somehow. many of the usual techniques are just not working though I am sort of keeping ploughing on just about.
I suppose its a classic symptom of depression but I can’t summon up enthusiasm for anything much and I am pretty much running on autopilot.  Functional with glazed eyes would be a suitable description of my demeanor now.  My life so far far can be dived quite neatly into decades, and my present circumstances have not changed much over the last  10 years, so something is due for a change I think.  I have no idea what though.