It is the intention to carry on with the Delta Ladies, which was very much in accord with Vicky’s thinking. We had discussed what we would do if either one of us had to leave the building, though we had not expected it to be quite so sudden. We were both saddened at the number of musicians that had left us recently. The plan such as it is is to take a short break, whilst we work out the practicalities of rearranging some of the songs. The line up will be as before a duo, trio or 4/5 piece, though also on occasion possibly solo as well.

One problem is that many of Vicky’s contacts were kept in her phone or on post it notes and I have some access to these but not all. We are intending to gig from around June onwards all being well.

It’s that moment when you think, am I doing the right thing. I hope so, but time will tell.

“To thine own self be true, and it must follow, as the night the day, thou canst not then be false to any man.”

I think just possibly I may have taken on a little too much. There is a storm blowing up and no captain to steer the ship. But the first mates crew is still loyal. Will they though  think on and abandon ship.

I cannot attend Vicky’s funeral and Vicky’s name will not be used. That’s hit me hard even though I was expecting it.

I will ether bend or break whilst trying in a small part to help keep that memory alive.  

It’s a weird place to be in though.  

“God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away” (Revelation 21:4). 

Just about everything that was worrying me has now paled into insignificance. Funny how that happens. When some people leave there is a very big hole in you life, that is impossible to fill and you just have to live with it.
And so it is now.