Today I was out again having tea in Bedford park. It’s been bright and sunny with quite a lot of people out enjoying themselves. The late spring is now gathering momentum too. I am feeling a bit low again. Starting to get out again is nice but I am feeling worse when I come home. But there are a few little glimmers of hope
It was good talking and walking in the sunshine yesterday if nothing else. Re Depression. What I have now seems to be more reactive. If I have stuff to do it goes away sufficiently. So as things are developing and more opportunities to interact with people face to face develop that should help quite a bit. The key difference is it’s me making my own decisions re music and life in general where as before I was heavily influenced /guided for good or ill by close friends and not making to many of my own decisions. Advice like “live a quiet life, that will do” so as to avoid stress and anxiety. That dosent really work for me, though I could totally see their point of view in the matter. I still feel that things won’t’ turn the corner until next year as there will still be a lot of Covid restrictions that restrict opportunities particularly for lower level live music events. Also having a full band again would help a bit too I suppose. Currently there is threat of an extension to lockdown again looming. I really do hope not or at least that restrictions do not become too severe again.
And so we wait…
I am still managing to keep up with the creative side of music though, just about.