Monthly Archives: June 2014

People’s Assembly demo in London – tens of thousands matching for a just and equal society

 

After several complaints BBC finally admits its happened? And also only 25 secs of video.
Perhaps they sent the office boy or girl out with a camcorder 😉
At least it was reported on C4. How are people to make any other conclusion than that it was deliberately  suppressed. Strange. Buy not reporting it though it is likely that the publicity over the longer term will be greater as many people are now likely to start asking questions.
Disturbing that this was not reported on the public service channel at the time.
Still no official explanation.

Noisy music

Slightly more noisy music.

 

Winners and Losers, dice and logic and don’t forget ….

Define success, what is it really? Much of what we desire materially we don’t really need though it might well make us feel better, though often not for very long and then we “need” some new thing. 

I expect that most of us by the time we reach middle age, may well change our ideas on what our achievements or lack of them really mean to us. Our happiness and sense of well being is often linked to and dependent on things that we can’t control.

My life seems like a perpetual drawn game (bad sporting analogy, it being world cup and all that), mostly you gain a little then you lose a little, then things pop back to a state of equilibrium but actually its really just entropy when you view it from a more distant perspective. A bit like spread betting in a way, as you think your actually making a gain but statistically on average your not. My frustrations in life mostly come from the fact that due to the state of my mental health if I push myself to try and realize my potential at some point the fuse go’s and I don’t quite make it. My decision making is often flawed as the underlying mental weather can start brewing up a storm which I am not aware of and i get blown off course. This happens less then it used to as I am more aware of it now, but being aware does not confer the ability to transcend the problem, as you can’t really step outside of your head generally speaking, paradoxically even when you are “out of your head”

I have been lucky enough to make choices that have allowed me to survive but perhaps not always those that would make me thrive and often there’s a big gulf between those.

On the level of my artistic pretensions with regard to music I have managed to do one or two things that I am quite pleased with along the way and perhaps that’s as good as it gets. I would like to do more but just can’t keep up the energy, as I don’t have the obsession and or drive that’s needed and trying to force myself usually is counterproductive. On top of that I often seem to hold several conflicting views at any one time which could be interpreted as lack of commitment or some form of dilettantism I suppose?

Not sure what I am trying to say here to be honest.

My very good friend Vicky Martin is still recovering from a triple bypass op (has now started the third week in hospital after the op) and its taking a little longer to get sorted and out of hospital so I am a little pre-occupied and just wishing and hoping that all will be well.