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Copacetic

Delta Ladies, Diana Stones Songs, glass cage, music, Musings, other, whatever

Here is a recent Jazz fusion type tune that I recorded.
Violin plus Rhodes Piano and Fretless Bass sound.

I just escaped from Martins Charity Irish session at the Mill hotel in Bedford (In aid of the recent disaster at  Creeslough ). 3 hours worth, so I was all fiddled out by that point. Nearly got stuck in the car park, with a tickety machine malfunction, but all sorted. It got really irish so I was blagging it on the violin to the max. Lots of people there so the charity hat filled up well. I am knackered today, 3 hours of fiddling has done me in. It was good fun and a worthwhile cause. There was an accordionist (Italian/Irish perhaps? ) We also played a latin thing and the Theme from the godfather then we segwayed into Molly Malone and some rebel songs and so forth. Some huge and stunning voices in evidence too.My A string decided to start unwinding too, but I got through it just before it got too unplayable. I realised that I am actually on my last full set of strings. Normally I don’t get to that point but I have got a little chaotic recently.

As I write this a phenomenal amount of rain is falling again.

Covid and me

I am wondering not if my possibly up to 4 separate bouts of covid have done me any lasting damage. I am beginning to have my suspicions now. I have had some very odd but niggling health issues that seem to drag on and manifest in rather strange ways. Some so odd that you start to doubt the sometimes fragile grip on sanity.

I do wonder if it’s just the onward march of time and I am desperately trying to blame it on some other weird pathology. I also have a first in Hypochondria, which does not help much.
Wait and see maybe is the answer?

“Hope is being able to see that there is light despite all of the darkness.” —Desmond Tutu.

October Musings Part 3

Diana Stones Songs, glass cage, music, Musings, other, Piano, pictures, whatever,

Yes, it’s the next thrilling installment and I bet you just can’t wait.

My reptile part of my brain is convinced of the following: 1) I will die of something awful soon (This thought has been with for years generally and ebbs and flows in it’s intensity like weather patterns ). 2) Something will go wrong and I wont receive my pension, even though I have a piece of paper telling me exactly when and how much. 3) Although my car has a very expensive service and drives smoothly, that it will fail and leave me stranded somewhere. 4)….. In fact I could go on listing stuff forever. It’s really annoying but I have had to deal with feeling like this for what feels like time immemorial. 

A perfect example of an anxiety driven logical fallacy.

At the time of writing I have just added a Violin part to a track sent to me by Jon Bickley and I am pleased to say he likes it.  I tried a slightly different recording set up to simplify things and it worked like a treat. The more I do the more I want to do. That helps when the depression thing kicks in.   It’s a typical autumn day out here almost countryside land, Sunny cool and the  trees giving a decent display of colour as the leaves turn. 

Here is a tune from earlier this year,(February perhaps). Its a Violin and synth tune with a lush orchestration. Its starts slowly and dreamily then the beats kick in. Ideal for dancing around your lounge after too many cans of cheap larger and/or other relaxants.

Musically speaking generally things are going fairly well though still not very much happening on the gig front alas. So another Saturday night in doing solo interpretive dancing because it’s good exercise, though it might look silly. So maybe I am interpreting myself in that case .

Tea is the essence of life, with no tea life would be dull indeed.

October Musings Part 2

Musings

I am sort of in limbo really. Everything is slightly on hold. I did only minimal exercises this morning. Its is dawning on me that apart from: #1 Armageddon #2 Onset of serious illness This is it in terms of what my life is and will be. That is both a relief but also slightly daunting as I now need to plow on with things under my own steam. If they fail I don’t have comfort of blaming other when I screw up. I am a little under motivated, which is why I am tagging onto and working with other other people. Though I do my own creative thing, I do need outside poking to jolly me along a bit as well. So my Ok-ness is slightly tempered by the notion that I must keep interacting with people and not get too introverted again.  It’s that old thing of not being able to go backwards and not being able to go forwards yet. A feeling of stuckness and nostalgia and and also wondering why the axe has not fallen yet. I didn’t calculate on me still being around at this stage. My script sort of ran out, but I am still here and the play continues. I am unsure though of what my part is, and so improvise wildly waiting for a prompt from the box and wondering why the curtain has not come down. I have in relative terms done a reasonable amount this year to try and keep things going on the musical front at least but it’s felt like very hard work. That bad bout of covid was not much help either. I think Christmas is going to be very grim frankly this year.

I try to plan for the future but within reason live for the day. You have to do that as part of managing depression and also arthritis pain for example. So I shuffle a long. My next Amazon and Spotify and all that etcetera album is scheduled to be released on 11 November. That will earn me at least 00.40p over the year LOL. But hey it’s fun and why not. 

This is from about a year ago.