Just maybe they are. Start of a migraine this morning. Felt a bit stressed last night. Don’t know why. Anxiety can be managed but it never quite goes away. Everything feels a bit stale suddenly and the seasons change is becoming very visible due to the dry weather. Today I feel old and perhaps now also a little irrelevant. Is there a prescription for that? Apparently not it most cases.

The older I get the more I realise that it’s not about being right or wrong it’s just trying to do no harm. My legacy (if I were to have one ) would I hope be that one or two people liked me and maybe enjoyed my music and didn’t think I was a too much of a c****. If I am singing Bessie Smith’s’ “Me and my gin” people like the racket I make and that weird noise that comes out is me, not me pretending to be somebody or something else…. Much like when I am singing my own songs I guess. I have some rude songs that I have never recorded as well. What am I like 😉

At present I am trying to convince my sister that with regard to her arm injury and the NHS screw up related to it a bad deal may be better than no deal as I think the best she can get is a compromise. Also I think the original consultant may have been over optimistic. Perhaps even to keep her spirits up. I don’t want to stop her trying to get the best fix possible but the effort required for an uncertain outcome may be frankly a waste of time. So that is a bit of a worry.
She is back in court very soon and hopefully to finally sort out a final ruling on inheritance from her partner which has been going on for about 3 years since he died.

Everything is fading. Really it is. I have been working on some new music, but it’s got very hot and I am taking a break. Yesterday it was 20C today its near to 30C. Crazy weather.
Played through some stuff on the piano to loosen up and I am totally knackered.

A few tunes