So I have arrived at here, but it’s not the place I expected it to be. That is to say it looks very different on finally arriving than I expected.

So what do I mean by this. Well as to my physical health, I am still here today (that’s about all I can say), but my mental health has been wonky for years. I feel I am drifting as I don’t seen to have too much drive to do stuff at present. Is it ageing. Yes, and no I guess. I have been producing a lot of music and I do get out to play live again a little, but I don’t feel like planning for the next big adventure so much anymore. Hopefully it’s just a passing phase. Autumn always has a whiff of things being over. This Autumn it seems even more intense somehow. I guess that is where my heads at now.

A few friends seem to be having troubles and uncertainty too. Perhaps it’s catching 🙂 I am trying to figure out what to do if my car doesn’t pass its MOT. Is it time to get back to being a one car household? Not sure. It might work? Choices are hard at times. Just been for a dental check up and I am OK at present. I hate going to the dentists. I had a lot of work done as a child including a lot of extractions in one go with gas and its left me feeling anxious at the dentists all these years later.

I got struck nostalgic again, and it’s difficult not to get sucked into that treacly void of often false comfort that provides so often. Well we got it over the line for one season or so and once we stood on the shoulders of giants 🙂
Nobody wants to leave the party first or last for that matter do they?
A lot of people are leaving the party at present though, Zoot Money and Herbie Flowers to name just a couple of them.

So here we are heading towards proper autumnal weather and it’s a dull old day as I write this. I had a band gig last night in Hitchin on Friday night that was good fun. Go me. This week my sister has been visiting and I have helped her to sort out a few things. So the weeks gone quite swiftly, though it has been a little tiring over all as there has been a lot of talking and I am not used to that so much these days. Maybe because lately I just haven’t had so much to say? We have dramatic and stormy looking skys now and the threat of very heavy rain potentially, so I don’t think I will be going to far. As usual I have also been working on some music too so here’s a new song. A slightly rock pop vibe this time.

Can You Help Me Please.