So the sun’s out and it’s very warm and all that. Hooray mostly I guess. But, not much face to face contact this week and I feel a bit weird all of a sudden. I have 3 full days at the weekend but typing this I feel odd. A wave of gloom manifests’ out of nowhere.

Not Every thing You See Is Real
If only I could do my make up as well as A.I does.

D Stone

I made this. it was a very quick, off the cuff recording.  Nice comment on the track too
“Your voice and lyrics are so beautiful, it’s like the leaves falling gently on my soul.”  Oh my.
“Is it Falling On You”

It got a few plays which is nice. Its slightly folkier than most of my stuff as a contrast.
Cool. This time of year I tend to be up and about earlier in the day when its cooler.

Local news from this septic isle.
Are kids getting worse, or was it always like this? I suspect actually it always was.

This from a facebook friend who is F/M and disabled and about 68 and lives in Bournemouth:

“So I took a little ride to the shop and parked my mobile scooter outside. When I came back several teenage boys were messing around with it. They actually tore the wire out that goes to the motor and so I had to push the thing almost a mile up hill to get it home. When it first happened the wire was sparking and it started to smoke. I yanked the battery out quick and it stopped smoking. I could smell burnt wires tho. So that’s out of commission. Time to take the wheel off my other scooter and reinflate it. No sense in wanting to kill those boys or give them a good slap. Just keep calm and carry-on.”

That would have totally done my head in to be honest I think. Hopeful all will be well though.

I had a bit of a funny turn and anxiety/panic attack yesterday. Totally out of the blue. I haven’t had one of those for quite a while.

I am having a very slow day today. Deliberately so as I found a specific trigger for my anxiety the other day. A sudden nasty rib pain hit (not had that particular one for months, possibly due to all the special exercise routines actually working ) and because I was already a bit on edge it set the whole show off. I realised that when talking to many people I know they somehow seem to filter out a lot of the news. I seem to get obsessed with stuff. It makes one feel at times that everything is hopeless. I do too much thinking. In my head I have trying to resolve or quantify everything thing. It’s not that my thoughts are irrational, but rather that I do get obsessed by things I cannot control. Maybe the internet makes one mad! I need to talk to people, its in my nature although I am shy/introvert to an extent, that seems to have changed somewhat since VIcky and Ralphs passing. I have had a lot more company and social interaction in the last year or so which is good, but I am not so great with just my own company.

Its is dawning on me I could do solo gigs with a bit of forethought and a loop pedal. I just need a bit more confidence really. maybe that’s the next step if there is one?

So here we all are in June and the Sun’s out.

So hey guess what, more gigs and more rehearsals and bla de bla. This fine bunch is Skrum pictured at the Gallery In Sawbridgeworth recently.

Allegedly they won’t bite though you never really know. I also had an outing with Orchard. That’s what I call a young crowd.

So, I also recorded a new song: here it is:
Its called I give up, I guess. And believe me I nearly did.

So what else is new? I am Quite pleased I managed to do 2 rehearsals 30 miles apart from each other without getting stressed. For a brief glorious moment I felt as if I was I control.
Major problems with my finances at the moment. So I am no longer in pursuit.

Well now, so it was aliens after all or not.

https://www.theguardian.com/world/2023/jun/06/whistleblower-ufo-alien-tech-spacecraft

Apparently a former intelligence official turned whistleblower has given Congress and the Intelligence Community Inspector General extensive classified information about deeply covert programs that he says possess retrieved intact and partially intact craft of non-human origin. The information, he says, has been illegally withheld from Congress, and he filed a complaint alleging that he suffered illegal retaliation for his confidential disclosures, reported here for the first time. Other intelligence officials, both active and retired, with knowledge of these programs through their work in various agencies, have independently provided similar, corroborating information, both on and off the record. The whistleblower, David Charles Grusch, 36, a decorated former combat officer in Afghanistan, is a veteran of the National Geospatial-Intelligence Agency (NGA) and the National Reconnaissance Office (NRO). He served as the reconnaissance office’s representative to the Unidentified Aerial Phenomena Task Force from 2019-2021. From late 2021 to July 2022, he was the NGA’s co-lead for UAP analysis and its representative to the task force.” So there might be proof of advanced ET’s that the US has. That would be cool. I wish.

This was reported in the Guardian!

Well there is stuff happening alrighty. Turmoil possibly. I float along though unperturbed as if in a dream. Amazing. The weather has turned and is now doing spring stuff finally, so that’s a bit of a boost to the system at least. I still as though I haven’t slept for a week at present. I do hope it will wear off. Talking of which being a glutton for punishment I submitted a song to a song contest and just got a rejection as I didn’t get listed. It was one for oldies. Thank goodness I have other outlets. There were 3000 entries, so to be honest I can’t imagine how much of a listen anything could get? I certainly would not have had the patience to do it. Curiously the song I had rejected was a track BBC local radio were thinking about playing. Though I do stress the “Thinking” element. I have borrowed a friends bass as I used to have one to play on a couple o f recordings rather than using my usual keyboard ones. I am seeing if it inspires me to anything different by virtue of the different playing technique required. I am feeling a little jaded creatively and would like something to give my creative spark a bit of a lift.

I just looked in on a forum I use, it’s a social space and there is a Brexit thread. It’s like a religious cult with the leavers, they blame everything on Europe but none of them have any understanding of how the EU parliament worked. they stil bang on about sovereignty. No point in putting forward any facts, they are basically like the Trumpers. It just annoys me. Blaming the EU for the fact that the UK government did not invest in the north. It’s not investing in the north now either. You cannot put forward any counter arguments without being told to leave the country if you don’t like it. Positively Homearian levels of discourse and rhetoric LOL.

So sad to hear that Tina Turner has checked out at 83. She was great. In fact the best.

On the brighter side, I now have a new passport and a old folks bus pass. Go me. All I need is a bus now. it would help 😂 That’s all the news that’s new. Band rehearsals are continuing holiday breaks and personnel issues notwithstanding.

A Piano Tune for you.

Comparing last year with this one in May there is a lot more going on. Strange but I am a little jaded and bored as I type this.