Got to on keep trying. Apparently. Even when you are running out of steam. And I am a wee bit I must confess. Today I assembled an exercise bike and it was quite a workout to be honest. Outdoor exercises at this season plays havoc with my arthritis, so it a useful winter compromise. Keeping fit when you don’t regularly gig is I find a problem. So I am slowly trying to build up a little bit of stamina again if I can. Also activity can help alleviate or mitigate depression too which is also a very important for me as well. So in-between practicing and recording and mixing there is now exercise to work in as well. It’s worth a try at least.

The worlds in a pretty bad state now and there’s little that an individual can do really. Public out cry about injustice may well make us feel we are doing something, but it seems that we have less and less power to achieve any sort of leverage and change the mindset of those that rule over us. Power is a drug and those that don’t have it are doomed to waste away. There is no sense left in the whole wide world now.

Here’s a world/jazz genre instrumental. It’s called “Intrusive thoughts”

Facebook: Yes it’s useful and mostly benign except for one thing. The endless rubbish that comes through on messenger from spammers and scammers and phishers. I get it in industrial quantities at times. the messages start like this “Hi” or “How are you”.
Nobody tells you why they are getting in contact for example. It’s almost never anything genuine. Ok its a nuisance but it stil annoys me. Ho hum. Also it is always worth remembering that pretty things may be toxic and dangerous. So don’t always believe what you see.

• I rang the Samaritans
  I ran out of spoons. Finally. Its Monday start of week 6 in hospital. And it got worse.I had a cytooapy which was agony. but then it turns out I might have cancer,Fuck… Its raining right now for sure. Thats a real kick in the head.What can I say. I feel a void… Maybe one day universe but I guess its not todayWish I had some witty reppost but not today I am afraid.
• Hospital Days
  Indeed it is a dull day today. Today specifically I am trying to get outside my head a bit by you know watching YouTube and and plenty of Radio 4 as you do this afternoon I’m going to try and Ride some stuff for my blog is it may be interesting some people because I do have people that regularly follow it also it’s quite good therapy well I’m feeling a little bit less overwhelmed as you can imagine my immediate concern is the mass that they found in my bladder … Continue reading Hospital Days →
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  I had a heart attack
  I’m still here but it’s been a hell of a ride so far 5 weeks in hospital which is not fun I’m waiting surgery for that dependent on my having cleared and infection and it might take a while With a fair wind I might make it home Christmas I sincerely hope so This is what is holding up my surgery it’s an infection that normally is in your gut but if I where to have the op it could kill me. Typing this from my hospital bed or rather dictating … Continue reading I had a heart attack →
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  Maybe this is it?
  I think I may be checking out, never felt so ill. So just incase here is my little goodbye to you:Not my words this time.I gave my best shot. Love you all ♥ Ecclesiastes 3:1–8 (NKJV)
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  Bug Alert
  I have picked up a weird gastric flu bug and it’s horrible. Its making me ache in places I didn’t know I had. I even tried a Covid test but for a change it’s not that or is it? God knows where I got it though. There is stuff circulating at present. I suspect it might actually be our local water supply but I really do hope not. It’s really messed up my week though I have managed to just about plough on but I have let a couple of things … Continue reading Bug Alert →