I do wish there was a way to get everybody to a happy place where we could all play nicely together, but it’s not going to happen.

What I have found depressing is that virtually every word a UK politician says laterly makes Boris Johnson seem like George Washington by comparison. The constant gas lighting and plain old school lying. The constant over representation of the appalling Farage popping up on screens too. I don’t have much to say today really.

Car needed new brakes, so more money. It comes and it goes… What can you do? You need to know when to throw in your hand or buy a new frock 🙂

So I am doing the usual doings music wise at home and away. Not much to report on that front. How am I doing? Honest answer is I am feeling pretty weird right now. I am able to do stuff and have been functioning but I feel emotionally flat and disassociated sort of. Been here before. When I feel bad its really not so much about how things are now it’s more looking at them through the lenses of the past which sort of distorts my view of the now. Most material worldly matters are ok but my heads living somewhere else. It is perhaps an artists or writers view of the world not a nuts and bolts one. But I am not feeling that great generally. I have been using every possible technique to keep it all together recently but its not working that well at the moment.

I just finished a sort of dance track. A little different to my usual output. I think it works.

This week I am very tired. Again. And its difficult to take an interest in anything much.

Just watching the world turn is exhausting. I had a visit from my sister for a couple days to help sort out a few things for her. We did most of the things on her list. The rest of the week was working on music projects and a rehearsal. I am a bit worried about how tired I am feeling recently. The news is generally bad on several fronts which of course doesn’t help either.

Do not comply

Frightened So Very Long. It’s a new song from me. And that’s how a lot of people are right now for all sorts of reasons. So here’ a stream of consciousness song just for you.

Not the best of days for me, just feeling a bit low again. I have been doing stuff though. I had another bad nights sleep so perhaps its connected. I just remixed a recent song I uploaded and used the ending for an introduction. Works much better like that. As in life occasional a little surgery may be required it seems to make the best of things. They say when you sup with the devil you need a long spoon, but can you always tell?

 “Live in harmony with one another. Do not be haughty, but associate with the lowly. Never be wise in your own sight.” -Romans 12:16