Sometimes it is better not to know. A new song. More like a demo I feel.
Surrealist Holiday

How to make things happen? Bully people or simply lie and dissemble perhaps?
If it’s good enough for the next US president I guess it must be legit. My thought for the day though is that “100% of nothing, is still nothing”.

I did an online tarot card reading today. this is what it said:

Death

A change has been in the air for some time and today the actual transformation could happen. There’s nothing to be afraid of, or to dread, or to fear losing. Room is being made and energy is being set aside for something new and better for you. It could be something small or something large, but whatever it is will be meaningful and affect your daily life.”

The Magician

You might be set up to be the smart one and solve a problem or two for someone else. While it might be your idea of fun to perform and be clever, try to keep things simple, especially if this is a work-related issue. It will cost you little or no effort and win you a lot of admiration, and maybe some monetary reward later.

The Lovers

The world may seem to be working overtime to baffle or confuse you, but you don’t have to take the bait. If you’re offered something that seems too perfectly tailored to your tastes or desires, it’s OK to be graciously skeptical. You can appear cautious rather than distrustful. Keep things simple today and minimize getting upset by torn or unsettled feelings.

Well, lets see what’s next. I have no idea what to make of that at all. Today feels like the whole world has stopped turning. Perhaps it has and I have just not noticed yet. Just one job left to do for me which is to get my old car off to the happy hunting grounds next week. I found a place that runs 24/7 (all accredited) and pays by bank transfer so that should be easy enough to do I hope.

Nothing feels as good as a live performance playing to and with really smelly noisy people though for boosting the endorphins of course 😂

Yes we did. Its melting now very quickly as if it had never been. I did some ill advised DIY and am still suffering the physical consequences of that a day or so later. Also it was not 100% successful either to add insult to injury. Horses for courses and all that I guess. Just remember not to ask for the chief’s special source unless you are a really good friend. Somethings change but for us mere mortals much is constant as the northern star in our perceptions of time passing. It is a tough world and it’s going backwards as more and more its run by morons, incompetents’ and quislings and people fearful of their own position who won’t do right by us.

“And Why Not?”

I am heading towards my 68th birthday in a few days time if I am spared. How did that happen! Not something I ever imagined or conceived of really. I have felt a bit stretched recently, old and worn though so who knows. So its keep calm and carry on day to day for me as much as possible I guess. So write and record music learn and material and practice it for my cover bands I play with. That’s mostly what I do these days. I have been thinking about going into video blogging a bit but wonder if I have really got much to say that others have not already said more eloquently?

My impromptu plumbing (which still has a minor leak) and stuff seems to have messed with my arms and back a bit. I have lost a lot strength. I didn’t realise quite how much. I might have put a bit too much welly in to it. I need to be a bit careful now I guess. Legs are good, hands are good but my arms just haven’t got the mojo anymore. I don’t mind a bit of a chill out as things are. I still feel I am recovering from Christmas. Every year in the run up to my Birthday I tend to hit a low of some sort. It must just be a seasonal thing I guess and I have a sad lamp which I believe helps a bit. I am on a bit of a go slow at present to be honest. I use music notation much more now than I used to for my own material that I develop as it does make life a lot easier to keep track of things especially when you have other distractions and diversions and concentration is not quite so focused anymore.

A slightly shaky start to the year for me to be honest. A bit of anxiety triggered by catastrophizing and over thinking a few recent events I suspect. Life without meds mostly works except when it doesn’t. Perhaps I am just too internalised now. I do feel a little bit absent at the moment. I don’t have enough of the outside world to rub up against on a regular basis now. My music rehearsal work out was not much impinged on by aches and pains which was a relief. The more active I am the less severe or disabling the pains are but most of my activities’ are not that physical so a period like Christmas with a disrupted routine dose have an effect.One of our trio gigs got cancelled in January. No entertainment budget for that month. Bum….. Rude words and stuff. But they may rebook in February. I do have to reboot basically. Ironically due to our plumbing issues and stuff we have had a string of random folks in the flat for the last week or so. I shall have to resume my search for a local guitar player again so I can get out a bit more with the violin/fiddle think. It can’t be impossible. The old guys are a bit risky though as they just think I am a friendly old girl with a deep voice. I did think I could do lounge piano type stuff, but I can’t take a proper digital piano out now. Too heavy to lift and it wont fit in the car. Its funny but when I do feel a bit low, I often think through what I could try doing that I am not already. The reality is not there is not much that I haven’t already tried it seems.

Not much else to say today really.