It’s that moment when you think, am I doing the right thing. I hope so, but time will tell.

“To thine own self be true, and it must follow, as the night the day, thou canst not then be false to any man.”

I think just possibly I may have taken on a little too much. There is a storm blowing up and no captain to steer the ship. But the first mates crew is still loyal. Will they though  think on and abandon ship.

I cannot attend Vicky’s funeral and Vicky’s name will not be used. That’s hit me hard even though I was expecting it.

I will ether bend or break whilst trying in a small part to help keep that memory alive.  

It’s a weird place to be in though.  

“God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away” (Revelation 21:4). 

Just about everything that was worrying me has now paled into insignificance. Funny how that happens. When some people leave there is a very big hole in you life, that is impossible to fill and you just have to live with it.
And so it is now.