Ok, things are not going well. I have lost most of the rather limited confidence that I had left. My self-esteem has pretty much dropped to zero. I really don’t feel confident to do anything now. I have been lurking in my studio/music room/den quite a bit as it’s about the only thing that sufficiently distracts me for any length of time but even that is not working anymore.

So here’s a tune I recorded recently based on a song I wrote earlier in the year. I think it works sort of.

This is as much about how people feel as what’s actually happening.
If you do read this go through the comments and read one in particular.

“I really get where you’re coming from. Ever since the referendum I’ve felt a slight unease when out and about. Case point : The morning immediately after the Brexit vote I was waiting at a bus stop when a van drove past and shouted ‘Brexit’ at me. Said van turned around and pulled over across the road whilst it’s three occupants stared at me for a good few minutes. They then drove right up to the bus stop and waited, for a few minutes no doubt waiting for a reaction. I felt at any moment they were going to jump out and beat me to a pulp Eventually they drove off. Neil, your paranoia is sadly justified”

According to the last Shelter report, at least 320,000 people are homeless, almost 5,000 are rough sleeping (likely to be a huge underestimate) and 726 people died homeless in England and Wales in 2018 (a 22% rise from 2017).

One Third Soup Kitchen are at Stratford. Do pop over and say hello if you’re shopping in the area.