Word are sometimes just words. I do not comment on the moral issue of what is reasonable force and what is ‘Defence’ and where it becomes ‘Offence’. How all this will look 25 years from now who knows. I won’t be around to find out. It is still the case wars even now are mostly economically of benefit to to those countries not directly involved as belligerents though this is lined is blurred in many cases. I am now 68 and as far as I can judge it has pretty much been the case that wars have been waged with very few pauses for most of my life in the Middle East, Asia and the Balkans with apologies for those that I have missed. Who ‘Pays’ for war?

Mostly the poor who have the least agency and usually suffer most inevitably. The first step is to be able to see the other. But we don’t.

It’s always a ‘they’ that are somehow, despicable or evil and this message is given to us by reasonable sounding men in suits.

Yet all wars tend to end the same way. men in suits predominately sitting at a table.

Perhaps we could just go straight to that point without the blood, death and destruction beforehand though that would be less profitable…

A few tunes for you.

• Smooth Happy Ending
  A happy time with your new special friend
• Maybe Im a lost soul
  A simple song about not knowing what it all means if it means anything at all
• Afterthought For Piano
  A quiet meditative piano piece
• I Will Stand
  Medium tempo rock song, with 70s vibe.
• To Complex To Explain
  To Complex To Explain by Diana Stone
• Waterfalls once again remembered
  Solo Piano piece
• Somewhere In The MIddle
  Somewhere In The MIddle by Diana Stone
• Frightened So Very Long
  Frightened So Very Long by Diana Stone

It’s still to hot for me. Here’s a short Piano mood piece. Just a modal minor tune.
It might grow into something else as well though.

I feel very worn again. I did a gig at a village fate at Knebworth which was rather jolly fun with the Sonic Boomers but I am a bit done in at present. It’s been a very difficult week to be honest.
Sometimes you have to let go a little bit. Maybe this week is one of those?I am a bit irritable though as I can’t seem to cool off. I never used to get this hot to be honest. It’s funny but music is sort of existential. Gig or die almost for me. Vicky was the same. Maybe that’s why we worked so well together, because we were obsessed with it. this year I have felt pretty low at times. A lot of pain which is difficult to manage at times, a feeling of very low self worth and generally being past it . I feel like creatively I am just repeating myself a lot. I do wish what I do was a bit more recognised though my music does get played a fair amount. I miss playing gigs regularly. I can’t deal with the heat now either the way I used to. I am still as bi-polar as I ever was and easily triggered however much I try to manage it.

Back in the day at the Little Green Dragon:

Midsummer’s fast approaching. On a personal level it has been a fairly quiet time.
A few gigs between various the ensembles’ and a couple of open mic spots.
A lot of recording and writing too and a mistaken release of two albums simultaneously due to admin problems. Whoops, did not intend to do that. The usually existential struggle to figure life out in parallel naturally. Once upon a time we knew who the bad guys were and now they are everywhere it seems and in disguise and all around us. Everything, everywhere all at once.

Here’s a recent song. This one is a bit Trance/EDM with a little Jazz influenced piano

To Complex To Explain

I played 4 songs at a local open mike at the Bell Cotton End which was fun last Saturday but otherwise It’s been a rough week again for various reasons, including my partner having a medical emergency that required us to call an ambulance and be at A&E most of the night. But all is well now. A very scary moment. Its left me a bit exhausted.

The news is endless misery and sheer nastiness too. Bad times everywhere all at once.
Its suddenly very hot too and a high pollen count which is too much for me as well.