Well who knows. First care home St Paddy’s gig .It went fairly well and I have a run of them this week. A Stick thin old lady in chair with a full size baby doll in her arms she and could hear the music but she was somewhere back in her past i suppose. After these gigs am back into live music purdah Its all or nothing at present it seems. I am having more generalised low level anxiety again. After the next few gigs I may just try and work on getting my head a little better. Longer days and a few walks may help. Whatever happens on a personal level requires a different approach from me now. I have got stuck in a view of life that’s not practical or realistic anymore and its fuelling stress. I know this. Hence the morbid musings I guess.

Frustratingly the last recording I was working on is not going to work out at present so I shall move on to the next thing.

Here are a few of my most recent efforts:

• Interference Patterns
  Violin chil-out vibe with Synths
• False Dawns Illusion
  Gentle solo piano piece
• Everything Scares Me So
  A song about feeling scared like so many of us are right now.
• Not Home Yet
  Nostalgic wistful theme
• Big Sticking Plaster
  The grass is always greener
• And I Always Loved You
  A love song
• Maybe Some Silver Maybe Some Gold
  A song about betrayals and lost chances in life.
• Good Sense Of Humour
  A song about when your love thinks you're a clown but you don't care, so you sing a happy song
• Tell Me What Did I Do To You
  Slow rock ballad
• No More Excuse
  No More Excuses because you are bad. Slightly Gospel Blues feel song
• Mostly Grey Or Gray
  Mostly Grey Or Gray by Diana Stone
• A Place You Will Never Find
  A peaceful violin and electronica instrumental vibe.
• Feeling The Fear
  A song about feeling the fear and running away, but its not far enough.
• Still Fire Inside
  A song about feeling the blood rushing and the spirit still rises with that special person.
• Show Me Something I Can Believe In
  Pop world vibe

I am almost out of manuscript paper! Yes I know actually paper that you write with inky things on. As I don’t have a keyboard connected directly to my pc at present music software is not an option. I really should sort that out though as I have a Bluetooth equipped keyboard. I must put in my diary to try that out. It connects for audio so maybe there is an app?

Currently I am living in the past watching vintage TV shows and stuff. My back is complaining quite a bit at present.

When will it ever be enough?

Live in the Moment Quotations

Study as if you were to live forever. Live as if you were going to die tomorrow.
– Isidore of Seville

Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.
– Buddha

Life is only available in the here & now. The past is already gone, and the future is yet to come…there is only one moment for me to live…The present moment.
– Thich Nhat Hanh

Rejoice in the things that are present; all else is beyond thee.
– Montaigne

If you have one eye on yesterday, and one eye on tomorrow, you’re going to be cockeyed today.
– Anonymous

You can clutch the past so tightly to your chest that it leaves your arms too full to embrace the present.
– Jan Glidewell

Waste not fresh tears over old griefs.
– Euripides

Study as if you were to live forever. Live as if you were going to die tomorrow.
– Isidore of Seville

Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment.
– Buddha

We are here and it is now. Further than that all human knowledge is moonshine.
– H. L. Mencken

The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago. The second best time is now.
– Chinese Proverb

The ability to be in the present moment is a major component of mental wellness.
– Abraham Maslow

Today is the first day of the rest of your life.
– Charles Dederich

We are always getting ready to live but never living.
– Ralph Waldo Emerson

Children have neither past nor future; they enjoy the present, which very few of us do.
– Jean de la Bruyere

I got the blues thinking of the future, so I left off and made some marmalade. It’s amazing how it cheers one up to shred oranges and scrub the floor. – D.H. Lawrence

The best thing about the future is that it comes only one day at a time. 
– Abraham Lincoln

Today is life – the only life you are sure of. Make the most of today. 
– Dale Carnegie

One should count each day a separate life.
– Lucius Annaeus Seneca

Nothing is worth more than this day.
– Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

If you are still talking about what you did yesterday, you haven’t done much today.
– Anonymous

Real generosity toward the future lies in giving all to the present.
– Albert Camus

Learning is movement from moment to moment.
– J Krishnamurti

Today is the blocks with which we build.
– Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

I have memories – but only a fool stores his past in the future. 
– David Gerrold

Life is a succession of moments. To live each one is to succeed.
– Coria Kent

In the name of God, stop a moment, cease your work, look around you.
– Leo Tolstoy

If you spend your whole life waiting for the storm, you’ll never enjoy the sunshine.
– Morris West

The more I give myself permission to live in the moment and enjoy it without feeling guilty or judgmental about any other time, the better I feel about the quality of my work.
– Wayne Dyer

Do not anticipate trouble, or worry about what may never happen. Keep in the sunlight.
– Benjamin Franklin