March Onwards

Musings

Truth…

“That desire which is in us all to better other people’s condition by having them think as we think.”

Mark Twain.

“The world breaks everyone and afterward many are strong at the broken places.”
-A Farewell to Arms, 1929

Ernest Hemingway

A new piano tune:

My doing nothing is really not nothing but it feels a bit like it at present. Writing music, recording it, releasing on line. Actual real people listening to it. Some messaging me with quite thoughtful comments. That’s not so bad. Yes I am a bit more achy this year, so live leaping about may well need to be kept to sensible limits. But the old ways don’t work any more. I had a conversation with Brian the guitar player in our covers band about music and we are about a year and a bit apart in age. We both enjoy playing but we have limitations in terms of energy now. Rehearsal was good but tiring. The bands good but just doesn’t play enough to be match fit in some respects. It was obvious to me that Brian was like me exhausted before he even got there. Covid did rob me of a few years of decent gigs but the lockdown allowed me to take my on line music to a much higher level and reach. How I feel about stuff has changed. This year in particular. As I said before I don’t need to chase unicorns and rainbows. I will just do what I do until I cant or I feel its not good anymore. I am in uncharted territory now. I am now 5 years older than I ever predicted I would be. I am softening my attitudes.

One of my online music websites has now just gone over the 100,000 plays mark. So across all the different outlets that provide stats I can verify its now about 300,000 plus. So weirdly I travel hardly anywhere now or gig yet these people do listen. Many are much younger than I am. A lot are in war zones too. They would I suspect be quite disappointed if my actual wrinkly self were to manifest in person to perform. I am getting quite reclusive now. I don’t expect even having got thus far to have the kind of longevity that you have so attempting to kick of another live act from scratch seems a nugatory effort certainly at present as the effort versus the returns no longer seems worth it. So I shall let my mind wander where it will. Bit tired. Not so depressed recently despite aches and pains. At present just plodding on with my own music doings. I think it may actually be enough that people do listen to my music and seem to enjoy or get something from it. I am definitely feeling my age more recently. Exercises are useful of course but they cant fix approaching 60 years worth of bent spine. My back went peculiar just after puberty pretty much. I was tired after last night’s exertions at rehearsals so I slept right through...

What’s that?

Yes, its another one of those. I wonder how it got in?