There are a lot of really unhinged mostly xenophobic people on Facebook and for some reason I seem to get a lot of friend requests from them. Quite why I should be honored in such away I am unsure. I am also a tad mentally becalmed or at least making very little headway but for very different reasons of course. Creatively I have had a busy year and now I feel a bit drained. As I said previously I need to get out a bit more where people are but I feel a bit reticent to do so when it comes to the act rather than the deed at the moment. It’s that fear of rejection thing in my case. I do need to expand my comfort zone as I have been trying a bit too much to avoid stress and sort of shut myself off with a bit of a wall around me. I need to loosen up a bit I think but the question is how though. Still ploughing on with the day to day though, music and what not. And oh my it’s cold out… I had a migraine this morning but the visuals have worn off but my head still hurts and I feel tired. I have plodded on with things a bit though.

Here is my wish list which I feel can only be achieved by an occurrence of serendipity. My ideal musical partner (to expand my horizon) would be someone that can play a bit (preferably guitar but ability on other instrument as well might be a plus as that will complement violin and or keyboard) maybe also sing in tune. Read a lead sheet/chord sheet so that they can learn new stuff without it taking forever. I have met people who play well but just cant learn anything other than what they already know. Happy to play/sing originals and covers. If they were also a writer/composer that would work if not an ego tripping loon. Not frightened of their own shadow. Ideally a male musician as doubles as chaperone/bodyguard assistant lifter of heavy things. Also particularly in a duo format it tends to look right. Not frightened to busk (as in play stuff you don’t know really well, not the freezing you extremities’ off with a hat in street) or improvise a bit. There are lots of people like that, but guess what they are all already in a band it seems.

In my dreams santa brought me this even though I was very very naughty 🙂
imagine all the fun you could be having if you were in my band….