It’s been a wet start to this month so far. I have spent too much time staring at screens this past couple of days, drives you mad I think…Having a brief fraying around the edges moment I think. Today I am a bit listless. I can’t commence on the headlight restoration today as its been to wet. Done a lot of music related stuff last few days so I am at a temporary saturation point with all that guff. I might carry on with more video editing I think.

I am too sensitive to perceived criticism and reactive to stuff and often feel threatened and sometimes I get overwhelmed. That’s due to damage I got as a kid growing up. I manage it better in the main than I used to but it never really goes away. It’s a nuisance though. I can just feel it trying to kick off but I have found the off switch on this occasion. It doesn’t always work though.I guess that this my subconscious anxiety trigger at the root of it it. Just a massive insecurity. I think even if I was successful and maybe wealthy I would still have the same demons. Sometimes I can live with them, sometimes they gatecrash and takeover the party. Then you are left with doubt and fear. It doesn’t make sense but there it is.