Still too hot.

It’s still to hot for me. Here’s a short Piano mood piece. Just a modal minor tune.
It might grow into something else as well though.

I feel very worn again. I did a gig at a village fate at Knebworth which was rather jolly fun with the Sonic Boomers but I am a bit done in at present. It’s been a very difficult week to be honest.
Sometimes you have to let go a little bit. Maybe this week is one of those?I am a bit irritable though as I can’t seem to cool off. I never used to get this hot to be honest. It’s funny but music is sort of existential. Gig or die almost for me. Vicky was the same. Maybe that’s why we worked so well together, because we were obsessed with it. this year I have felt pretty low at times. A lot of pain which is difficult to manage at times, a feeling of very low self worth and generally being past it . I feel like creatively I am just repeating myself a lot. I do wish what I do was a bit more recognised though my music does get played a fair amount. I miss playing gigs regularly. I can’t deal with the heat now either the way I used to. I am still as bi-polar as I ever was and easily triggered however much I try to manage it.

Back in the day at the Little Green Dragon: