Its sunny and its not unpleasant. A few minor domestic ructions but hopefully nothing too bothersome. On a musical note, my singing voice has definitely changed over the last few months. My breathing is a lot better,(its affected by the arthritis in my chest and upper back) so although it will never be ‘beautiful’ I think it kind of works with my songs. Cool My exercise routine has had some tangible results in terms of pain reduction and some improvement in posture but I never considered that it might help me vocally. So a useful by-product. As you can imagine taking deep breaths and getting pains in your chest at times is a tad of putting so being able to improve that is a real boon though I was really just working on pain reduction. The song I just did is in a higher range, more like my voice was 30 years ago. I only really noticed it when I was mixing the track.

I am still logging my moods on my mood app. No real pattern is emerging other than that bad sleep and anxiety will trigger irritability. That’s not exactly news though. I guess I was looking for a quick fix as ever. So far though one has not manifested. What do you do when somebody’s spirit has just faded away? When they have decided to retreat into a very small and limited world. That kind of person is very difficult to live with at times however much you may love them. Somebody that has never really wanted to be challenged in the way they think. I can’t avoid be challenged and exposed to ideas, good or bad, real or fake.I have no urge to be any sort of academic, simply to know a little more about how the world turns. I am not a classic nerd by any means. Today as I write I am not so happy. Why, who knows. I don’t believe in pie in the sky, but I do find some comfort in religion/spirituality for example in the ‘design for life’ sense. Chaos is harder for me to take these days so I look for patterns.

I am stunned by the number of Americans that actually believe they have some innate form of superiority and truly have money as a god….