Got to on keep trying. Apparently. Even when you are running out of steam. And I am a wee bit I must confess. Today I assembled an exercise bike and it was quite a workout to be honest. Outdoor exercises at this season plays havoc with my arthritis, so it a useful winter compromise. Keeping fit when you don’t regularly gig is I find a problem. So I am slowly trying to build up a little bit of stamina again if I can. Also activity can help alleviate or mitigate depression too which is also a very important for me as well. So in-between practicing and recording and mixing there is now exercise to work in as well. It’s worth a try at least.

The worlds in a pretty bad state now and there’s little that an individual can do really. Public out cry about injustice may well make us feel we are doing something, but it seems that we have less and less power to achieve any sort of leverage and change the mindset of those that rule over us. Power is a drug and those that don’t have it are doomed to waste away. There is no sense left in the whole wide world now.

Here’s a world/jazz genre instrumental. It’s called “Intrusive thoughts”

Facebook: Yes it’s useful and mostly benign except for one thing. The endless rubbish that comes through on messenger from spammers and scammers and phishers. I get it in industrial quantities at times. the messages start like this “Hi” or “How are you”.
Nobody tells you why they are getting in contact for example. It’s almost never anything genuine. Ok its a nuisance but it stil annoys me. Ho hum. Also it is always worth remembering that pretty things may be toxic and dangerous. So don’t always believe what you see.

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  The Sun Shone Today
  Diana Stones Glasscage · Wasted Life Yes it really did. And it stopped raining too. I am still tired though. Its weird to be honest. I have sort of zoned out the last few days after my anxiety thing on Wednesday night. I feel sort odd mentally. It was a bit cathartic as it brought into focus that I have mentally been pushing myself a bit too hard. Basically doing lots of doing is good on one level for mental health but not when it becomes a source of anxiety of … Continue reading The Sun Shone Today →
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  A Little Bit More Personal History
  I felt mildly anxious before I went out to Redbourn Folk last night, but really enjoyed the evening. Came home, then bang out of nowhere. Massive anxiety attack last night. But that’s how it happens as you might well know if you are similarly afflicted. Heart racing for about an hour. I had a great evening out at the folk club, got home then suddenly shaking so much I couldn’t get the key in the door. Full on panic ensued and a pulse of 128. I ended up having to get … Continue reading A Little Bit More Personal History →
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  And It’s Not Really Working
  Well, things are stil a curates egg pretty much some good, some bad some middling. A mild panic this morning for folks at the compound here as the vehicle gates have jammed though they managed to manually open them. A thrilling day so far, cleaned washing machine filter but it didn’t actually need cleaning. A couple of emails sent. Stuff like that.. I do find a massive feeling of inertia when dealing with people generally. Everybody has the same story to tell now. People (younger ones two) are not going out … Continue reading And It’s Not Really Working →
• A mini rant about musical matters
  About 2 weeks ago I put an add on a music message board to try and expand the possibilities’ of getting out and playing more primarily but in the local area not miles away. It had 235 views and not one single response. I wonder if that’s a record? Wow. Yes I am in a Band/trio and also a folk band but they are not exactly busy and whilst I am quite comfortable performing I am not primarily a solo performer and attending open mics where I don’t really know people … Continue reading A mini rant about musical matters →
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  February 2026, Thoughts On Getting Older
  Well, a funny old day. I couldn’t settle to anything at all. Slight gloom ensued. I am sleeping OK but still waking up tired at present. What I notice is if I am out and doing stuff I feel OK but at home although I am nowhere near as anxious as I have been for a long time I do feel very tired. Again though if I am beavering away making a recording or writing music or learning something new I am fine. So how much is depression and how much … Continue reading February 2026, Thoughts On Getting Older →