Monthly Archives: July 2017

Minister of cognitive dissonance

The new Tory Minister of cognitive dissonance perhaps? Make no mistake about what’s really going on.

The Austerity agenda has never been about balancing the books. Much more about attempting to deliberately create a ready pool of cheap labour for the benefit primarily of the top 20%. Hence the proliferation of zero hours contracts.

Guess what that’s not a contract it’s self-employment. There is nothing wrong with self-employment if it is actually by choice, but for many people it’s Hobsons choice.
Add to this how difficult it is to get any sort of employment once past 50 let alone 60. There is no even playing field of opportunity. Many people are likely to find themselves having to register as unemployed with all that that entails. It is also the case that many people may not be able to work in the same way that they did when younger for all sorts of reasons.
How did we get here? I am very clear as to how that’s happened….

 

Pending review

Well today was a bad day. I felt very low, sometimes however much I try things just get on top of me. I get angry, frustrated and all logic goes out of the window.  That’s one of the gifts depression brings to the party.   So today I have been trying unsuccessfully to shift my mood with many distractions.  Listening to music from my teenage years Neal Young, Elton John, Hendrix, Yes and also a bit of other stuff like the Dudley Moore trio. !968 to 1972 in particular was an incredible time more music and revisiting it helped me a bit.  I am still fighting it out with a French Language course but being dyslexic doesn’t really help to much, but I can’t give up. So many times in my life it seems as though I have had to though.  Its very frustrating, or maybe I am a lot stupider than I thought I was.

I also started recording a track which will be a song once I have sorted the lyrics into some sort of order. I spent a couple of hours working on that.  I think it might be a reasonable number if I can get a good enough vocal on it. I can sing but my voice is not going to win awards. In the past I did work with some guest vocalists on some collaboration’s but personal circumstances make that a bit difficult to do here.

Also I am listening to the sound and production on recordings I really like to see if I can get some sort of warmth into my own stuff. Some of the 70’s stuff is particularly appealing. Perhaps I need to open the doors up figuratively and literally  and try again?

Now I am a bit wary of people and i am not always a good judge of character, I can be easily fooled or duped if I don’t keep my wits about me.  Also I often get suspicious of peoples  motives and that can get me in trouble if I misinterpret them. The trouble is often ends up with me feeling isolated and cutting myself off from opportunity.