Yep,  it’s been one of those weeks. My car is making weird noises and I need to get it sorted soon. I discover I have a broken crown when I go to the dentist(which I hate). My motivation is sadly lacking and the last tune I was working on ground to a halt.
Prince dying was a real downer too of course. I was not a massive fan, perhaps because there is not enough time to listen to everything that’s out there, so I may have missed out. On the plus side I had a really good gig with the Delta Ladies last night down in Dorking that was a very  pleasant surprise. Tomorrow night  I am playing at  the Mitre in Barnet which is a very good pub,  but sadly a long way from Battersea so I can’t drop in as often as I would like.  That should be fun. I wish the weather would get its act together though, as I could do with a bit of the warm stuff. I do tend to veer between getting bogged down in gloom and floating along thinking everything is cool, so I am in an odd space at present.

I do suffer from a constant anxiety and I am also a raving hypochondriac. When I was younger I had dread full panic attacks, often waking in the middle of the night. As years have gone by I have graduated towards a general low level existential angst.  Thats where my heads at now. I don’t want feel I  live in a world that feels as those the bad guys are mostly winning but that is how it feels now.  I also have a lot of guilt about being me and living in a world that I feel I am somewhat of an outsider in.

Once upon a time in Scarborough. perhaps this is why I have never been back lol.

Thanks to Helen for preserving this on video from 2002. 14 years ago. Its not that bad. I have never managed to get a decent version of this song on disc yet. may be I should revisit it.