{"id":901,"date":"2010-10-03T19:32:08","date_gmt":"2010-10-03T18:32:08","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/?p=901"},"modified":"2015-10-12T22:39:46","modified_gmt":"2015-10-12T21:39:46","slug":"my-diary-from-1985","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2010\/10\/03\/my-diary-from-1985\/","title":{"rendered":"My Diary from 1985"},"content":{"rendered":"<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">Just by chance I happened to open an old diary from 1985 and it felt open on a significant page. \u00a0The end of a somewhat odd relationship with a girl who had Bi-Polar. At the time I was not aware of the devastating effect that Bi-Polar has on peoples lives and I had not identified my the nature of my own mental problems either.<br \/>\nI worked back through the diary and discovered that the relationship had lasted 6 months almost to the day. I suspect that there were many reasons why it did not work out but I have no doubt that one of them was simply my being far too needy. Also to be honest I was not terribly interesting company in those days and may well have seemed very boring indeed. \u00a0If I had been able to meet me then I would I think have found someone with very limited horizons doing a dead end job that was easily amused and incredibly naive and also in complete denial of their own nature.<\/p>\n<p>What is strange to me is that I should find out 25 years later that she had taken her own life a few years after I knew her as I had always imagined her as the kind of person that would have succeeded at most things she wanted to do&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Life leads us down some very strange paths.<\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: justify;\">\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Just by chance I happened to open an old diary from 1985 and it felt open on a significant page. \u00a0The end of a somewhat odd relationship with a girl who had Bi-Polar. At the time I was not aware of the devastating effect that Bi-Polar has on peoples lives and I had not identified &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2010\/10\/03\/my-diary-from-1985\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">My Diary from 1985<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"advanced_seo_description":"","jetpack_seo_html_title":"","jetpack_seo_noindex":false,"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":false,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[22,3],"tags":[265],"class_list":["post-901","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-bipolar","category-musings","tag-history"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6NRDR-ex","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":177021,"url":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2024\/04\/01\/the-last-song\/","url_meta":{"origin":901,"position":0},"title":"The Last Song","author":"diana Stone","date":"April 1, 2024","format":false,"excerpt":"It's been good to know you Diana Stones Glasscage \u00b7 Happy Apocalypse","rel":"","context":"In &quot;Bi-polar&quot;","block_context":{"text":"Bi-polar","link":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/category\/musings\/bipolar\/"},"img":{"alt_text":"","src":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/01\/20210813_202242-scaled.jpg?fit=1200%2C900&ssl=1&resize=350%2C200","width":350,"height":200,"srcset":"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/01\/20210813_202242-scaled.jpg?fit=1200%2C900&ssl=1&resize=350%2C200 1x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/01\/20210813_202242-scaled.jpg?fit=1200%2C900&ssl=1&resize=525%2C300 1.5x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/01\/20210813_202242-scaled.jpg?fit=1200%2C900&ssl=1&resize=700%2C400 2x, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/01\/20210813_202242-scaled.jpg?fit=1200%2C900&ssl=1&resize=1050%2C600 3x"},"classes":[]},{"id":978,"url":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2011\/01\/02\/2011-and-other-stuff\/","url_meta":{"origin":901,"position":1},"title":"2011 and other stuff","author":"diana Stone","date":"January 2, 2011","format":false,"excerpt":"Its not been the best start to New Year, but hopefully things will get back in to equilibrium soon. \u00c2\u00a0 So Happy New Year all. 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