{"id":255,"date":"2009-08-17T11:09:29","date_gmt":"2009-08-17T10:09:29","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/?p=255"},"modified":"2015-10-02T18:37:20","modified_gmt":"2015-10-02T17:37:20","slug":"ever-get-really-tired","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2009\/08\/17\/ever-get-really-tired\/","title":{"rendered":"Ever get really tired"},"content":{"rendered":"

Really Really tired, like when everything is just too much effort? Yep me too. Its been a difficult time over the past few months and nothing seems to have worked out on a practical basis. Every idea I have had for scratching out a living has been a complete flop and I don’t know if its simply that I am not good enough at what I do or just a sign of the times. I do feel a little bit a drift now though.<\/p>\n

I tried reducing my anti-depressant meds dose to see if I could get a little bit more motivation but that only makes me irritable and makes my concentration worse, and its looking more and more like I \u00a0am going to end up filing in and office somewhere or worse to survive and the thought is rather dispiriting after all the effort I have put in to everything else, particularly over the last 2 years or so.<\/p>\n

The main thing is I can’t work the way I used too, \u00a0my \u00a0mind wanders and after a a couple of hours I have just drifted away.
\nDeadlines get me stressed and my mind go’s completely blank plus there is the worry about money which is becoming more and more pressing all the time too.<\/p>\n

I played at a garden party yesterday in my ‘Delta Ladies’ incarnation. We had a great time and everyone was enjoying it and we sold some albums too, only another 112 and we break even \ud83d\ude42 The house was in Lonesome lane. \u00a0For the first 40 minutes of the set my mind was just completely absent, I played OK but basically on auto-pilot, by the end I was feeling more normal thank goodness though. The thing is in previous work that I have done apart from powerpoint presentations you could not do it terribly well in an altered state of consciousness, though that did happen a few times I have to admit.<\/p>\n

Here are some pictures taken by my good friend Ralph Stephenson.<\/p>\n

\"Girls <\/a>
Girls on film again <\/div> <\/div> <\/div>
\"Theres <\/a>
Theres an old mill by the stream nelly dean <\/div> <\/div>
\"I <\/a>
I will give it 5 <\/div> <\/div> <\/div> <\/div>
\"Not <\/a>
Not the pyramid stage <\/div> <\/div> <\/div>
\"Not <\/a>
Not quite Glastonbury <\/div> <\/div> <\/div>
\"Dueling <\/a>
Dueling bows <\/div> <\/div> <\/div>
\"Under <\/a> <\/div> <\/div> <\/div> <\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Really Really tired, like when everything is just too much effort? Yep me too. Its been a difficult time over the past few months and nothing seems to have worked out on a practical basis. 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