{"id":180435,"date":"2026-09-09T17:32:11","date_gmt":"2026-09-09T16:32:11","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/?p=180435"},"modified":"2026-09-09T17:32:11","modified_gmt":"2026-09-09T16:32:11","slug":"dont-panic-whoops-too-late","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2026\/09\/09\/dont-panic-whoops-too-late\/","title":{"rendered":"Don&#8217;t panic, whoops too late&#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<iframe loading=\"lazy\" width=\"100%\" height=\"166\" scrolling=\"no\" frameborder=\"no\" allow=\"autoplay; encrypted-media\" src=\"https:\/\/w.soundcloud.com\/player\/?url=https%3A\/\/api.soundcloud.com\/tracks\/soundcloud%253Atracks%253A2396194374&#038;color=%2332202c&#038;auto_play=false&#038;hide_related=false&#038;show_comments=true&#038;show_user=true&#038;show_reposts=false&#038;show_teaser=true\"><\/iframe><div style=\"font-size: 10px; color: #cccccc;line-break: anywhere;word-break: normal;overflow: hidden;white-space: nowrap;text-overflow: ellipsis; font-family: Interstate,Lucida Grande,Lucida Sans Unicode,Lucida Sans,Garuda,Verdana,Tahoma,sans-serif;font-weight: 100;\"><a href=\"https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/dianastone\" title=\"Diana Stones Glasscage\" target=\"_blank\" style=\"color: #cccccc; text-decoration: none;\">Diana Stones Glasscage<\/a> \u00b7 <a href=\"https:\/\/soundcloud.com\/dianastone\/get-a-little-friendlier-one\" title=\"Get A Little Friendlier One Day\" target=\"_blank\" style=\"color: #cccccc; text-decoration: none;\">Get A Little Friendlier One Day<\/a><\/div>\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image is-style-rounded\">\n<figure class=\"alignleft size-full is-resized\"><img data-recalc-dims=\"1\" loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"604\" height=\"1074\" data-attachment-id=\"180474\" data-permalink=\"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2026\/09\/09\/dont-panic-whoops-too-late\/hellofriendly\/\" data-orig-file=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/hellofriendly.png?fit=1152%2C2048&amp;ssl=1\" data-orig-size=\"1152,2048\" data-comments-opened=\"0\" data-image-meta=\"{&quot;aperture&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;credit&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;camera&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;caption&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;created_timestamp&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;copyright&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;focal_length&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;iso&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;shutter_speed&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;title&quot;:&quot;&quot;,&quot;orientation&quot;:&quot;0&quot;,&quot;alt&quot;:&quot;&quot;}\" data-image-title=\"hellofriendly\" data-image-description=\"\" data-image-caption=\"\" data-large-file=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/hellofriendly.png?fit=576%2C1024&amp;ssl=1\" src=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/hellofriendly.png?resize=604%2C1074&#038;ssl=1\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-180474\" style=\"aspect-ratio:0.562498233714851;width:260px;height:auto\" srcset=\"https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/hellofriendly.png?w=1152&amp;ssl=1 1152w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/hellofriendly.png?resize=169%2C300&amp;ssl=1 169w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/hellofriendly.png?resize=576%2C1024&amp;ssl=1 576w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/hellofriendly.png?resize=768%2C1365&amp;ssl=1 768w, https:\/\/i0.wp.com\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2026\/09\/hellofriendly.png?resize=864%2C1536&amp;ssl=1 864w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 604px) 100vw, 604px\" \/><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">Today I had a severe anxiety attack having not had a bad one for a few years. i am wrecked. I have been trying to reboot my life a bit and its likely to fail spectacularly. It seems that in the last few years everything I have done has been a series of false starts and stuff that has just broken or been to ill conceived and on far too shakier a foundation to flourish. I need other people to function, but people that are open and not shady devious individuals or malicious manipulators. But now as I write this I feel out to lunch and scared and weird. I just can&#8217;t shift that feeling right now. The last time I had a really bad episode I was home alone and it was during the lockdown. So I went out for a walk on a hot day and eventually felt Ok. Today not so much.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"> To the extent that I have seriously considered retiring from live music apart from the odd special event. I just feel too insecure about stuff at the moment and I worry that I won&#8217;t be able to get back on the bus again. I think I have made the mistake of trying to fit in a little too much this year and that&#8217;s made me a bit fed up as its got me nowhere, then it&#8217;s made me angry and frustrated as well. I have tried to be cool when people have behaved like arseholes when I should have said enough already. And I have allowed others to undervalue me or disrespect me and said OK fine, but it&#8217;s and I would not I hope do that to others.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">I should have taken a harder perhaps more risky road in some of my endeavors, but I got too comfortable and as hey I had an income and its cool, so I kind of gave up on what I really cared about.Failing is not the worst thing and I have shrunk my comfort zone down to zero.  And I may just have left things too late. I have kind of put myself in a box&#8230; To fit in but then you realise others just don&#8217;t care about things the way you do or consider then important. I have been backing the wrong horse basically and I feel betrayed somewhat but perhaps by myself in this case. I think in a way its almost like being in a cult. I am obsessed with music and people that are not in my tribe and cult followers might well consider it madness&#8230; Music was my church then perhaps? Perhaps it is a form of madness. Who knows. This is one day and maybe tomorrow will be different of course. I don&#8217;t like to mention the mental problems I do have but equally I have to accommodate them in daily life of course and today I just couldn&#8217;t find a way to mitigate them to be honest. All my usual tricks and rouses and diversions simply didn&#8217;t work.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\">So far this week has been a bit crap. I am wobbling a bit at the moment as the bipolar thing can make indulge in risky behaviours (and in my case that would not be buying an expensive musical instrument) and I seem to be in that zone at present. I just stopped myself from doing something a bit daft that could have been a short term gain but potentially long term misery. A close call. <br><br>Got lots of aches and pains today (weather perhaps), but I am feeling a lot calmer. I think part of my anxiety might also have been triggered by straining a chest muscle\/Sternum which I have done before. You hurt something and get in to a cycle of shallow breathing and off you go. I have a mystery bruise just above my left boob and I have even cracked ribs in the past without knowing it at the time. But I have got to be more honest about stuff that goes on in my head even at the risk of potentially losing a friend or too along the way. Ducking and diving doesn&#8217;t work all the time.<br><br>I am finding it difficult to accept my limitations and its a a bit of time for a reckoning and trying to come to terms with it all, You may have heard me say that before perchance. <\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><br><br><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><br><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\"><br><br><br><br><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Diana Stones Glasscage \u00b7 Get A Little Friendlier One Day Today I had a severe anxiety attack having not had a bad one for a few years. i am wrecked. I have been trying to reboot my life a bit and its likely to fail spectacularly. It seems that in the last few years everything &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2026\/09\/09\/dont-panic-whoops-too-late\/\" class=\"more-link\">Continue reading <span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Don&#8217;t panic, whoops too late&#8230;<\/span> <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":180480,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"advanced_seo_description":"","jetpack_seo_html_title":"","jetpack_seo_noindex":false,"jetpack_seo_schema_type":"","_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_feature_clip_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","default_image_id":0,"font":"","enabled":false},"version":2},"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false},"categories":[3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-180435","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-musings"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p6NRDR-KWf","jetpack-related-posts":[{"id":179043,"url":"https:\/\/glass-cage.com\/dianas_blog\/2025\/06\/19\/its-nearly-the-longest-day\/","url_meta":{"origin":180435,"position":0},"title":"Its nearly the longest day","author":"diana Stone","date":"June 19, 2025","format":false,"excerpt":"Midsummer's fast approaching. 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